*I HATE TAT*

yesterday he asked me whether we can still b fren.. i answered him,of cos can..
but den,tis morning around 6.30am,he sms me.. he told me something n i din reply.. i gotta go skul jor..
so,i will reply him at nite time coz i m free at tat time..
b4 i send msg to him,he ady sent to me.. it is as followed:-
"y dun reply msg??izit u hate me,tat's y dun wanna reply?? i got sth to ask u,u wan to break up,is tat bcoz of u hav another bf?? u rili hav no feel to me,a little oso dun hav???"

i dun noe wat to answer him,n i replied him after sometime...
later at nite,he called me.. we talked on d phone 4 around 20 minutes,i din talk much.. same goes to him..
it was lik there was a barrier between us.. nothing much to chat wit him..
felt lik dun wan to share my problems wit him..he told me tat he had stopped his studies which he pursued a few months ago.. i asked him y.. he said he didnt noe..
perhaps i may noe y,it was bcoz of me.. he pursued d course oso bcoz of me,he tried to catch up wit me so tat he can suit me..
b4 ended d call,he told me tat his sis asked him to persuade me..
i asked,"how ur sis noe?".. he said,"she saw me crying"..
"we dun hav anymor chance,rite?".. i answered simple,"dun noe.."

dun noe y tears rolling down,it was such a long time i din cry 4 him.. d last i thought it was 1 month ago.. n i promise i wont cry 4 tis ppl anymore..
i thought he wont find me tonite anymor..
my guessing wrong dy..
he sms me again at nite:---

[["i dun believe tat u dun even hav a little time to reply my msg..if u sincerely wan to reply,how busy u r oso u will reply.. u keep on saying tat i lik to hesitate tis n tat n dun hav confident on u.. u noe y i m lik tat,tis is bcoz i rili love u,i scared i will loss u 1day.. i jz wan u to accompany 4 a while jz to chat.. dun scold me.."]]

so depressed when i saw tis msg.. feeling lik wanna suicide..
hahax.. stupid thinking.. not worth i die 4 him..
den later around 10pm,he called me again n tis time my mum n bro were in my room..
so,i simply answered his question so tat my mum wont hesitate me..
after we ended our conversation,i sms him as he asked me to do so..
we chat a lot of things n i hope it was rili d ending of our relationship..
enough 4 tat,so tired of all these stuff..
better b fren 4ever,not bf n gf 4ever !!!