an early wish to everyone..
HAPPY NEW YEAR !
hope that in the year of 2010,everyone will stay healthy and happy..
recently my uncle's life isnt that satisfying,erm.. i mean quite terrible..
im worry bout him,he is my closest uncle,he was the one who saved me from my psycho world..
so,i sincerely pray that his life will turn into a good one,not to say perfect but at least not a bad one in the coming 2010 year..
best wishes for him,all the best and may all his dreams come true..
i have a few wishes for the coming 2010 year,hope that all my wishes will come true..
1) Hope that all my family members and friends will stay healthy,happy and safe epecially my dad,mum,grandpa,brothers and youngest uncle..
2) Hope that i will excel in studies,same goes to my brothers..
3) Hope that i will get what i wish for.. *greedy smile*
4) Hope that he and me will stay happy forever,and hope that our relationship will last long..
lastly and the most important wish is that :-
*Taa Daa*
-Hope that all my wishes above will be fulfilled,will come true..
Haha..
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 !
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
*HURTFUL*
erm.. i dun feel good from last nite till now..
was happily chatting thru phone last nite,but felt very hurtful after a small matter..
yeah,it was a small matter,just few lines of words expressed from the voie cord,but it wasnt a small matter for me,in fact it left a big aftermath to me..
i cried,yeah,i really cried after sucha long time didnt drop tears !
althou it didnt seem serious,somehow it still give a big impact to my feeling,especially..
if it wasnt from his mouth,i bet i wouldnt be tis sad..
i just couldnt accept,it reminded me of the time i was psycho-ing..
i cried a lot,even after i hung up the phone,tears still couldnt stop rolling down..
i could hardly breath,suffocated !
i swept floor in d middle of the nite,the single little thing still wandering in my mind,tears dropped again !
stayed awake till around 4am,slept after that..
tis morning,eyes swollen.. CRAP !
went to phin's house,she noticed my eyes swollen and from my face and emotion,she knew tat im unhappy..
she sms-ed me jz now and asked wat happen.. i didnt tell her yet..
im moody the whole day,even until now..
im sad..
i try hard to forget bout it,do not think bout it,stay cheerful,think to the positive side.. i try to smile,not in a fake way.. i really try hard to do all these,but i failed !
let me be alone for sometime,i will be OK soon,very very soon..
=)
was happily chatting thru phone last nite,but felt very hurtful after a small matter..
yeah,it was a small matter,just few lines of words expressed from the voie cord,but it wasnt a small matter for me,in fact it left a big aftermath to me..
i cried,yeah,i really cried after sucha long time didnt drop tears !
althou it didnt seem serious,somehow it still give a big impact to my feeling,especially..
if it wasnt from his mouth,i bet i wouldnt be tis sad..
i just couldnt accept,it reminded me of the time i was psycho-ing..
i cried a lot,even after i hung up the phone,tears still couldnt stop rolling down..
i could hardly breath,suffocated !
i swept floor in d middle of the nite,the single little thing still wandering in my mind,tears dropped again !
stayed awake till around 4am,slept after that..
tis morning,eyes swollen.. CRAP !
went to phin's house,she noticed my eyes swollen and from my face and emotion,she knew tat im unhappy..
she sms-ed me jz now and asked wat happen.. i didnt tell her yet..
im moody the whole day,even until now..
im sad..
i try hard to forget bout it,do not think bout it,stay cheerful,think to the positive side.. i try to smile,not in a fake way.. i really try hard to do all these,but i failed !
let me be alone for sometime,i will be OK soon,very very soon..
=)
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
*RESENTFUL*
as JW said,i write in chinese a bit "kik sui"..
so,i decided to write in english..
resentful,tat was it..
i really felt a bit irritated when i read tat blog..
i never knew that u will say so,in fact i can tell u,i even felt much much more disappointed than u do !
u didnt like my tone?! wat's going on,u were the one who being rude from the beginning,i didnt noe,mayb u didnt feel that,but i did feel !
u still say that, "我还能低声低气的和你聊".. ok,FINE if u think that u talk to me nicely..
yeah,u talked to me nicely,u did not wrong,im the one who couldnt accept,very sorie !
the way u talked to me,completely carved a word "FRUST" in my heart towards u..
never a boy talking so rudely to me,u were the first and CONGRATS !!
sorie if it offended u,i rili not happy reading the blog,it was so unexpected..
i stil remember vividly in my mind,every single hurting words u said to me..
"如果你要生气就生气饱它啦" , "....大老" for me,these two phrases really hurting,they were very rude if addressed to a girl.. i hate ppl talking to me and add the word "da lao" at the end of the sentence..
mayb some of u dont feel that they were rude,but i myself do not like these words,in fact i hate !
one more thing that dissappointed me the most was at the end of our conversation..
i didnt noe the conversation had came to an end,by just saying "我做所有的一切都是因为我爱你,拜",u hung the phone.. i was like,wat the ABCDEFG !
never a guy hung the call b4 i did,it was very irresponsible of a guy doing so..
yeah,everyone has his/her own way of thinking,to some of u it might not seem that serious,but for myself,i rili angry wit tat act..
again i stress the main thing here,dun ever hang up the phone unnoticely,pls end in a proper way !!!
sorie if all these offended u,but im just expressing what's inside my mind..
as u said,u r happy if i voice out the true thinking of mine..
u asked me why i make the decision to ask u to give up so fast,it was beause u were the one who decided 1st and tis forced me to make the next decision.. get me?
b4 i posted the blog,dated 16th of december,u ady wrote one,dated 15th dec..
and suprisingly,i didnt noe u have a blog until u revealed it to me..
after i posted that blog asking someone to not avoid the prob and come out to settle the problems in between us,u asked me whether that person is u..
i told u that u were the one i meant..
den oni u asked me to read ur blog and by then oni i noe u have one..
u posted tat blog on 15th,which was one day b4 i posted that particular blog..
in ur post,u mentioned that u had gave up me,which was obviously mentioned !
i never expected all these,OK fine !
i told myself,"i will never ever give u any chance to b my another half,NEVER !"
u gave up ur loved ones before she gives u up,how sad !
on the next day,u called me up and told me that u havent give me up..
wasnt that funny,u took me as toy izit?!
today u throw it because u dont like and tomoro u take it back coz u like it?!
anyway,tat was ur way of dealing wit things,mayb we dont understand each other..
im easily irritated,i dont afford to lose,i dont easily tolerate ppl.. ur characteristics are roughly the same as mine,and that's y we always argue..
dont tell me u r going to change,u dun need to,just be urself..
i wont force ppl to change because of me..
at the end,everything will still be the same..
anyway,thanx a lot for ur everything..
at least u do let me noe a lot of things,dun judge a ppl if u dun understand them..
i was really happy during the time with u,and was rili being frustrated at times..
nvm,just bear wit it..
i noe u will not easily give up as u requested me to keep back my words,i did,i kept back..
who noes what will happen in the future,and who gives a damn !
mayb we will be couple or mayb not..
i have my loved ones and we had started,i told u as u requested..
sorie,i noe it hurts..
i told u just because i do not want to hurt u more,just in case if u noe it in the future after i accepted another guy for so long..
thanx for ur everything,my friend !
i did cherish the happiness u brought to me !
take k and all the best for ur coming days !
=)
so,i decided to write in english..
resentful,tat was it..
i really felt a bit irritated when i read tat blog..
i never knew that u will say so,in fact i can tell u,i even felt much much more disappointed than u do !
u didnt like my tone?! wat's going on,u were the one who being rude from the beginning,i didnt noe,mayb u didnt feel that,but i did feel !
u still say that, "我还能低声低气的和你聊".. ok,FINE if u think that u talk to me nicely..
yeah,u talked to me nicely,u did not wrong,im the one who couldnt accept,very sorie !
the way u talked to me,completely carved a word "FRUST" in my heart towards u..
never a boy talking so rudely to me,u were the first and CONGRATS !!
sorie if it offended u,i rili not happy reading the blog,it was so unexpected..
i stil remember vividly in my mind,every single hurting words u said to me..
"如果你要生气就生气饱它啦" , "....大老" for me,these two phrases really hurting,they were very rude if addressed to a girl.. i hate ppl talking to me and add the word "da lao" at the end of the sentence..
mayb some of u dont feel that they were rude,but i myself do not like these words,in fact i hate !
one more thing that dissappointed me the most was at the end of our conversation..
i didnt noe the conversation had came to an end,by just saying "我做所有的一切都是因为我爱你,拜",u hung the phone.. i was like,wat the ABCDEFG !
never a guy hung the call b4 i did,it was very irresponsible of a guy doing so..
yeah,everyone has his/her own way of thinking,to some of u it might not seem that serious,but for myself,i rili angry wit tat act..
again i stress the main thing here,dun ever hang up the phone unnoticely,pls end in a proper way !!!
sorie if all these offended u,but im just expressing what's inside my mind..
as u said,u r happy if i voice out the true thinking of mine..
u asked me why i make the decision to ask u to give up so fast,it was beause u were the one who decided 1st and tis forced me to make the next decision.. get me?
b4 i posted the blog,dated 16th of december,u ady wrote one,dated 15th dec..
and suprisingly,i didnt noe u have a blog until u revealed it to me..
after i posted that blog asking someone to not avoid the prob and come out to settle the problems in between us,u asked me whether that person is u..
i told u that u were the one i meant..
den oni u asked me to read ur blog and by then oni i noe u have one..
u posted tat blog on 15th,which was one day b4 i posted that particular blog..
in ur post,u mentioned that u had gave up me,which was obviously mentioned !
i never expected all these,OK fine !
i told myself,"i will never ever give u any chance to b my another half,NEVER !"
u gave up ur loved ones before she gives u up,how sad !
on the next day,u called me up and told me that u havent give me up..
wasnt that funny,u took me as toy izit?!
today u throw it because u dont like and tomoro u take it back coz u like it?!
anyway,tat was ur way of dealing wit things,mayb we dont understand each other..
im easily irritated,i dont afford to lose,i dont easily tolerate ppl.. ur characteristics are roughly the same as mine,and that's y we always argue..
dont tell me u r going to change,u dun need to,just be urself..
i wont force ppl to change because of me..
at the end,everything will still be the same..
anyway,thanx a lot for ur everything..
at least u do let me noe a lot of things,dun judge a ppl if u dun understand them..
i was really happy during the time with u,and was rili being frustrated at times..
nvm,just bear wit it..
i noe u will not easily give up as u requested me to keep back my words,i did,i kept back..
who noes what will happen in the future,and who gives a damn !
mayb we will be couple or mayb not..
i have my loved ones and we had started,i told u as u requested..
sorie,i noe it hurts..
i told u just because i do not want to hurt u more,just in case if u noe it in the future after i accepted another guy for so long..
thanx for ur everything,my friend !
i did cherish the happiness u brought to me !
take k and all the best for ur coming days !
=)
Thursday, December 17, 2009
*对不起*
谢谢你一直以来对我那么好。。
也要说声抱歉因为我弄到你那么难受。。
我希望以后我们会有一段时间不会见到面因为如果我们见到，这只会弄到大家伤心。。
这一次放假我真的有想过要接收你，我已经打算等到羽球比赛过后回来才要给你答案。。
就在07/12/2009，我还很记得发生什么事。。
那天晚上我打电话回去给妈妈过后就打给朋友，你就叫我聊完才找你。。
聊完之后我就信息你，告诉你我过去我哥哥房间找他一下。。
你就叫我小心点，然后忙完我的东西再找你。。
到我得空了，我信息你跟你说我在朋友房间。。
我问你还要不要聊，不懂你得不得空聊因为隔了很多个钟了。。
你就回我信说，'你都说到这样了，我还能怎样'。。
当时我很生气因为我都不是这样的意思。。
那时候我就在想，我跟你这样下去都不是办法，以后会很常吵架，只能怪我自己小气，然后你也可能顶不顺我吧。。
我们都不是第一次吵架。。
你的jealousy程度也很高，这不只是我一个发觉到，外人也发觉得到。。
所以可能是这样我们才会常常吵架。。
从那天开始我就慢慢对你冷，也打算等到一天你再提起感情的东西，我会跟你说清楚。。
我回到来每天都烦这个问题，到底应不应该叫你放弃。。
我怕你会很伤心，象我一前给人家hurt那样，我知道很难受的，我足足哭了半年，psycho了半年。。我怕你会像我那样辛苦。。我也很怕我自己会做错决定。。结果我想了很久，终于有了最后的决定。。
现在都不用我说了，你都已经做了决定要放弃。。
我很感谢你这样做，也很对不起你。。
不要那么难过，我希望以后见到面，我们还是朋友。。
别那么伤心，不值得为了我而伤心难过。。
谢谢你一直以来那么疼爱我，要你等了半年，不好意思。。
保重了！
也要说声抱歉因为我弄到你那么难受。。
我希望以后我们会有一段时间不会见到面因为如果我们见到，这只会弄到大家伤心。。
这一次放假我真的有想过要接收你，我已经打算等到羽球比赛过后回来才要给你答案。。
就在07/12/2009，我还很记得发生什么事。。
那天晚上我打电话回去给妈妈过后就打给朋友，你就叫我聊完才找你。。
聊完之后我就信息你，告诉你我过去我哥哥房间找他一下。。
你就叫我小心点，然后忙完我的东西再找你。。
到我得空了，我信息你跟你说我在朋友房间。。
我问你还要不要聊，不懂你得不得空聊因为隔了很多个钟了。。
你就回我信说，'你都说到这样了，我还能怎样'。。
当时我很生气因为我都不是这样的意思。。
那时候我就在想，我跟你这样下去都不是办法，以后会很常吵架，只能怪我自己小气，然后你也可能顶不顺我吧。。
我们都不是第一次吵架。。
你的jealousy程度也很高，这不只是我一个发觉到，外人也发觉得到。。
所以可能是这样我们才会常常吵架。。
从那天开始我就慢慢对你冷，也打算等到一天你再提起感情的东西，我会跟你说清楚。。
我回到来每天都烦这个问题，到底应不应该叫你放弃。。
我怕你会很伤心，象我一前给人家hurt那样，我知道很难受的，我足足哭了半年，psycho了半年。。我怕你会像我那样辛苦。。我也很怕我自己会做错决定。。结果我想了很久，终于有了最后的决定。。
现在都不用我说了，你都已经做了决定要放弃。。
我很感谢你这样做，也很对不起你。。
不要那么难过，我希望以后见到面，我们还是朋友。。
别那么伤心，不值得为了我而伤心难过。。
谢谢你一直以来那么疼爱我，要你等了半年，不好意思。。
保重了！
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
*TIME 4 DECISION*
its time to decide,wat shud i do?
decisions r always difficult to make..
no matter wat the decision is,any one of the parties involved will suffer..
or else,i suffer..
let the game comes to an END,perhaps that might be the best decision made..
im waiting for the time to come,when time comes,there it is,problems solved,heartS bleed !
holiday is not really a holiday for me,holiday starts means vexation starts..
mayb tats d problem of being too free.. haha !
try to get wat i mean in the following sentences..
NEVER mix oil and water for they will cause the situation to be aggravated..
sometimes things of the same species,or so-called same gang are not necessary to be gathered together..
separate them,tat might be the best outta all !
at least,they can tolerate each other and situation is under controlled..
time flies,im leaving BG,very soon !
i hope that everything will be settled b4 i leave..
pls do sth to settle everything,dun let the things hanging for no reason..
i really do not noe what shud i do,all these make me EMO for most of the days during holiday..
just to remind,dont be offended by my words and pls dont EVADE from probs !
when things approach,they approach,brave urself,solve them !
when i feel dismay,i hope someone is there for me..
but he is not there,in fact,he is trying to avoid me..
what's he trying to do? forget me? giving up? feeling torturous?
if YES,do let me noe.. i will give u my answer..
thanx to those ppl who always accompany me,who always call me to share my problems,who always by my side,seeing my tears rolling down,cheering me up and most importantly keeping ur soul with me..
u guys' kind act will leave a deep deep memory in the grey matter of mine..
THANX ppl,LOVE u ppl so much !
back to KL tis week,any questions pls contact me and ask !
ADIOUS !
decisions r always difficult to make..
no matter wat the decision is,any one of the parties involved will suffer..
or else,i suffer..
let the game comes to an END,perhaps that might be the best decision made..
im waiting for the time to come,when time comes,there it is,problems solved,heartS bleed !
holiday is not really a holiday for me,holiday starts means vexation starts..
mayb tats d problem of being too free.. haha !
try to get wat i mean in the following sentences..
NEVER mix oil and water for they will cause the situation to be aggravated..
sometimes things of the same species,or so-called same gang are not necessary to be gathered together..
separate them,tat might be the best outta all !
at least,they can tolerate each other and situation is under controlled..
time flies,im leaving BG,very soon !
i hope that everything will be settled b4 i leave..
pls do sth to settle everything,dun let the things hanging for no reason..
i really do not noe what shud i do,all these make me EMO for most of the days during holiday..
just to remind,dont be offended by my words and pls dont EVADE from probs !
when things approach,they approach,brave urself,solve them !
when i feel dismay,i hope someone is there for me..
but he is not there,in fact,he is trying to avoid me..
what's he trying to do? forget me? giving up? feeling torturous?
if YES,do let me noe.. i will give u my answer..
thanx to those ppl who always accompany me,who always call me to share my problems,who always by my side,seeing my tears rolling down,cheering me up and most importantly keeping ur soul with me..
u guys' kind act will leave a deep deep memory in the grey matter of mine..
THANX ppl,LOVE u ppl so much !
back to KL tis week,any questions pls contact me and ask !
ADIOUS !
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