*LAST DAY OF DECEMBER*

now is 2.50am of 31st of DEC 2008..
erm,tis is d last day of year 2008.. gonna say goodbye to 2008 and welcome to 2009..
physically,there were lotzz of happenings throughout d year of 2008,including those sorrowful n delightful..
huhhhh.. time rili flies,a year passes,it was jz lik in a blink of eyes..
so far,dun have any plan for tonite,new year eve..
better stay at home,on9 or watsoever..
in year 2008,many things happened,too much to describe..

3 quite important person passed away in 2008,1st my poh-poh[grandma].. 2nd,rodiah[5 years-fren].. n 3rd,ah fu[my uncle]..
huhhhh... life is short,i agree,finally..
lik wat my frens [especially david n may kee] always tell me,enjoy ur life,appreciate ur life.. yea,it's true..
we shud enjoy life to its fullest,cherish every moment.. never give up life.. coz life is jz too short..

erm.. tis year is oso my BIG EXAM year.. SPM !!! after years of not having fever,tis year it comes... had a fever during SPM,add maths paper.. during chem paper still not feeling well n i didnt noe wat d questions were all about.. d reason,simple.. coz i never finish studying for tat subject n feeling rili unwell during d exam.. *sobxxxxx*
hope to pass with flying colours althou' it seems to b impossible..

a year taking up d resposibilities being a head prefect,it wasnt easy though.. lotzzz of speeches,tasks,functions needed to b done [including marching n merdeka celebration.. *paisehhh*]..
but,thank God,i finally managed to finished my duty.. being a capten of d sport house oso not easy.. actually not difficult oso,but bcoz of i'm a passive girl in sports [except badminton.. haha],it became difficult for me.. thank God,again.. i managed to complete my duty..

friendship life>>>>> relationship wit ah len getting further,erm.. not as close as last year..
last year we were being called LESBIAN coz we sat together,went for the same tuition,sitting next to each other in tuition,goin everywhere together[for breakfast,lunch,goin toilet,goin to find d teachers,goin tuition etc.].. no wonder ppl called us LESBIAN,but i'm not.. i love BOY,not GURLS.. tis year sitting wit cmk,so,i was getting closer to her,n even michelle said we were LESBIAN,again.. Pls,i lurv BOY,not GURLS.. we had many happy times together,in class chit-chatting,crapping around,telling jokes,day-dreaming bout our future,missing someone[cmk shud noe wat i mean],disturbing our friends around,sharing problems,gossiping bout d teachers,backstabbing our frens[especially a few of them in our class] n of cos,we did argue sometime.. one more never to b forgotten,mah pei yew,my ever best "darling".. had a lot of happy times wit her,playing badminton,goin gai-gai,gossiping many things[especially bout frens.. haha.. i admit i'm 8..lolx],doin many stupid things jz to irritate someone[sounds crazy,ryte??],sharing problems,n always sot together n never argue wit her b4.. haha..

after d SPM,our gang went hanging around,formerly i was not allowed to drive car to ipoh byh myself,n my gang here influenced me.. finally i drove to ipoh wit them,i told my parents when i was on half way to ipoh,they were shocked but at last allowed me to go..
haha.. after d 1st time,sure got 2nd n 3rd time,went to ipoh many times ady.. huhu.. will have one more time driving to ipoh in these few days.. haha..

d above are roughly wat happened throughout d year of 2008,apparently,most of them were happy events,but internally,most were sorrowful events.. not to b mentioned here,hurting man.. so,jz keep it in my heart,lock it,keep it as memories.. anything i left out,so sorie.. pls do let me noe if i left out anything..
no offence of wat i did throughout d year,pls forgive me if i did anything tat offended u all..
i would like to appologise here if there was any.. sorie yea..

my WISHES for d coming year of 2009 :-

*straight A's for SPM

*improvement in every aspects

*entering matrix or Uni or any good colleges but not burdening dad n mum

*healthy body n life for family members especially to grandpa,mum,dad,brothers n unclesn frens

*happy life for all [family n friends n myself]

*make more friends

*building up confidence

tat's all for d moment,cant think of anymore yet..
i received a msg from calvin,i like it very much.. it sounds lik tis :-

再过1天我们就要和08年说再见了，所以想对你说三个感谢。

第一个，谢谢你让我走入您的生活，做你的朋友，或许我不是你最精彩的，但我总是尽力做到最好。

第二个，谢谢你愿意走进我的生活，扮演朋友的角色，直到今天你依然是我生命中唯一最精彩的部分。

第三个，谢谢你这一路走来，很多的包容、安慰、关心，支持与鼓励。感恩你。因31号肯定很多祝福讯息而让你来不急看所以甘脆先给你寄上:-D

新年快乐～2009

another one,from jacintha :-

2009 is at ur doorstep..

remember,Life is short,break the rules,forgive n forgive quickly,love truly,laugh uncontrollably,and never regret anything that made you smile..

happy new year n friendship forever.. :-)

i think tis will b my last post in year of 2008..
here,i sincerely wishing all of u Happy New Year 2009 n wish tat all ur dreams come true..
good luck throughout d year of 2009 n enjoy ur LIFE coz it is SHORT,cherish every moment u have..
Happy Studying n Happy Working..

*HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009*

*ANTI-HOSPITAL*

i dont want to become a doctor anymore..
i decided to take pharmacy course n never will take doctorate course anymore..
i phobia wit hospital,phobia wit patients,n watsoever related to hospital,i mean doctor n those who screams for pain..
kinda scared wit ppl who is in pain... cant take it when i see them..
jz now,bout 9sth at nite,i went to General Hospital wit my family,to visit my uncle..
heading towards d entrance,i can sense a strong feeling which was very uncomfortable..
i hate to go to hospital.. huhhhh...
my uncle was admitted to hospital tis morning at kampar..
his condition suddenly became worst n no choice,need to transfer him to Ipoh..
d time we reached,he was jz there moments ago..
he was admitted to emergency ward,critical unit..
he was very ill,in cronic condition...
erm,my mum n me entered to see him whereas my dad n younger bro waited outside..
he was in pain,suffered..
i cant take it when i saw him,i stood there frozen,frown.. huhhhhh...
tears filled up my eyes although i m not rili tat close wit him..
i tried hard not to cry,moments later we were asked to go out coz doctor needed to check on his condition..
once we were out,i stood there lookin' at my mum,n i told her,"i dont want to become a doctor anymore.."
tears rolled down my cheek,cried ady.. huhhhh...
d feeling was extremely bad,heart felt sour..
looking at him in pain,helplessly..
nothing i can do to help.. huhhhh..
later on,doctor came out n told us something,we were not allow to enter to see him..
so,oni discussion wit doctor outside d room..
my legs were shaking,lolx.. shivering..
doctor told us to inform family members as well as relatives,those who shud noe..
erm.. be ready for anything tat might happen..
we went home n on d way back,i was bit quiet.. my mind kept on imagining my uncle,his condition in pain,his voice screaming pain.. *sobs sobs*
till now,i still couldnt calm myself,my feeling is fretful.. huhhh.. may have a nitemare..
here,i would lik to sincerely pray for him..
may God bless him..
AMITUOFO..

*CUT HAIR AGAIN,SOBX*

today my mum n me went for a hair cut..
haha..
i was once plan to change hairstyle,but... at last,i didnt have d courage to do so.. kakax..
haix.. so,now my hair still d same style..
now it's straight-er n much more shorter..
almost cried out in d saloon.. crazy,ryte???
now i noe y ppl sad when their long hair being shorten..
haha..
my hair was formerly not very straight,i mean during d last time i had my hair cut..
my hair was quite long,almost reach my waist..
i tot after straighten it,it will looks longer..
yea,true..
but at last,my mum said cut it shorter due to some prob..
huh.. tat moment felt lik goin to cry,tears filled my eyes.. luckily didnt roll down..
haix.. about 6.5cm gone..
sobs sobs..
i wondered how long i have to wait to let it grows long again..
damn freaking sad wit tis..
i miss my long hair.. sobs sobs..
actually there were two things tat made me sad..
erm,d hair was d 1st case..
another was a secret..
not goin to say here,but jz wan to express it so tat i will feel better..
huh.. sad wit life..
how good is tat if time can reverse back..
i'm sure i'll grab each n every opportunity n i will hold tightly wat i have..
if time can reverse,i will not suffer so much like now,n everything will b as fine as it will be..
huh.. time waits for no man,tat's true..
so,cherish every seconds u have..

*VEXATION IN MIND*

today went to an edu fair at syuen hotel..
lolX..
5 of us gained quite lotzza information there..
btw,i was asking bout medical field..
not really interested in d others..
haix..
tis vexed me a lot,no idea of goin where..
SEGi college offers quite a nice one..
a year of foundation in science..
a 2+2 course,which means 4 years of studies..
2 years in SEGi college n 2 years in Univesity of Sunderland,UK..
i'm quite interested in tis..
d fees here will b around RM 11000+,n bcoz of i was d head prefect,d fees will b lessen by RM 3000(tuition).. so,it will b around RM 8000+ per year.. tat's great..
next will b 2 years in UK,bout 13000 pound per year including accomodation..
2 years in UK done,next on is a year postgraduate period of traning..
after d last year,i can work at there..
if i wish to transfer back to malaysia,i will hav to work for d government for 3 years time n den oni i will b approved as a pharmacist..
lolx..
i told my parents bout tis,n my dad said,"good,carry on.. take tis lar,dun worry bout d fees.."
i dun wan to burden them,i still got a younger bro,next year standard 3 oni..
but my dad said tat to me,n i told him to wait till i finished making survey of all d suitable colleges/uniersities..
inti oso ok,but i dun lik it much..
if i want to become a doctor,IMU will b d best choice..
my aunt was asking me to study at russia if i rili want to become a doctor..
still thinking.. she said it is either u will face human being or jz medicine..
human being=doctor.. medicine=pharmacist..
haix..
she did ask me to go to IMU,n study my final year in either Scotland,UK or Australia..
so far,i think i will like pharmacist more coz i couldnt endure seeing ppl screaming for pain..
i might mad one day.. hehe..
btw,wait for result bah..
hope to strike straight A's,if possible lar..
God bless..

holiday still long..
thinking of how to spent my time..
rili bored..
bored,bored n bored..
mpy,u went to sg so long meh..
miss u so much leh.. wait u to come back to play badminton ah..
wit ah matt oso lar.. miss both of u lar.. haix.. faster come back lar..
oh ya,u guys say wanna go out to yum cha n gai gai,call me bah..
pity myself,everytime so i'm d driver..
once go out,it will b a whole day long,tiring myself..
ok lar,ady 3.15am ler..
gonna read some articles n sleep..
hope u guys hav a nice holiday lar..
nitezzz...

*HOLIDAY*

lolX..
hols started dy..
now ady d 4th day lurr...
boring till death !!!! tis hols gonna drive me crazy..
nth to do at home..
monday was my last exam,n tues i was doing nth at home..
jz helped mum packed her things n cleaned up my messy room..
erm,wednesday i went back to skul to return d text books..
lolx.. say bye-bye to my books n skul ler..
b4 tat,on tuesday,we all(ah len,ah chow n may kee) ady planned to go yum cha after returning books..
so,we met at 9.10am at skul.. after returning book,we went in to my car n discussed d place we r goin to yum cha..
they all said pusing got nth to much t eat,as well as batu gajah..
so,we went to menglembu,without my parents knowing it..
hehe.. once a while b a bad daughter,nvm bah..
we spent around 2 hours at there wit d main purpose,used up our time..
too bored at home,so,everyone didnt want to go home..
later on,they said wan to go shopping at ipoh..
haha.. i gonna die coz need to tell my mum bout tat..
lolX... finally i called my mum n told her tat i was in ipoh,n she was shocked..
she doesnt let me go so "far" alone,especially after my frens' case..
i was phobia driving after tat case too..
but,wat to do,rili boring at home..
so,we went to parade,den to yik foong,den to greentown n go to medan kit to fetch my God brother..
huhu..
they all,as usual,asked me to send them home one by one..
huh.. one lives in pusing,one lives at batu gajah perdana,one in batu gajah..
wow,need around 45 minutes to send them home..
haix..
i reached home around 6pm..
haix,one day gone..
plan for d coming days rili make me headache..
i rather go to work,but my parents.. i m sure they wont let me go..
better stay at home,help them..
now everyday,sleep,eat,day-dreaming,on9-ing,helping dad n mum,n in conclusion,wasting time..
result will come out in march '09,bout a solid 3 n a half months from now..
bored-nyer...
now planning my future,erm.. i mean my way in d future..
i wan to b a doctor or mayb a pharmacist..
so,my field will b in medical field..
but i scare i dun manage to cope wit it..
cant deny i m rili interested in medical field.. but 1 problem tat obstructs me from refusing to become a doctor is i scare ppl scream for PAIN..
lolx.. funny izzit?? dun laugh,it's true..
my aunt was taking tis course too,but den due to some problem,she was back to malaysia n now she was working neither doctor nor pharmacist..
my characteristics are kinda alike wit my aunt,she admitted too..
love add maths n maths,love science subjects,sad over losing even oni a mark,cant afford to lose,hate history,n d main thing,we look alike.. my mum said tat too,i can b her daughter jor..
haha..
so,now i was planning my futher studies..
mayb i m goin to b a pharmacist.. tis sounds better for me..
currently planning to apply ASEAN scholarship,so tat i can go to singapore..
but wit my results,i dun noe whether can get a nt..
unfortunately,d applying date was closed,so,need to wait till after CNY..
erm,hope i can get matrix,enter matrix den to uni n d last year,overseas..
tat's my family decision,i hav no idea..
they pay for it,so,i will not critize nor go against them..
wateva ,i will accept..
better u all make d decision for me,i dun lik to make decision,makes me think a lot n worry a lot..
huh..
but now obviously,study here 1st den overseas,most probably australia..
for d moment,let me apply scholarship 1st,dun wan to waste my parents' money on myself too much.. i still hav a younger brother,oni 8 years old..
so,hope to get scholarship..
hmmm... God bless me..
d most important thing now,help me out from tis boredom life..
haix...
for those who have their planned hols,enjoy urself bah..
Happy Holiday !!!