*FEELING BAD*

im feeling bad right now..
haix..
dun noe y,mood swings..
i feel like going home,mayb due to d physics exam tis friday..
im seriously stressed up..
ARGHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(
i cant rili cope wit physics n chemistry,these two subjects rili drive me crazy..
gonna flunk d paper in exam ! :/
God bless me..
three more days to go,JIAYOU JIAYOU !!
wanna go home..
:(
andrea said she see me homesicking again on next monday..

Andrea : Better u dun go home,later u come back sure homesick again..
Me : No no !! I want to go home.. Susu oso going back,how come i dun go back.. wahaha..

just sent an email to my beloved goo-goo,she is my idol..
seriously,im like a clone of her..
physically n mentally..
of cos,im fatter lar.. =P
wat she likes are wat i like,my characteristics are just like hers..
so,my mum told me once,"she shud be ur mum.. haha.. "
after sending the email to her,i expressed everything in it..
now feeling much more better... :)
Cheers !

*UPDATE*

dun noe wat shud i write bout,erm..
ok lar,update bout my recent life or else my blog will be a dead blog..
haha..
next friday going back to hometown,whOots.. tat's cool..
excited bout tat.. hahas..
last friday,our skul aka SPUS had teacher's day,sounds funny ryte??
my bro's gang asked me,"teacher's day?? har?? wat 4?"
their department didnt have it,oni our department celebrated..
n my class,almost whole class ponteng,i can say..
oni 3 of us going,tat's all i noe lar..
David Yi An,Carwyn n me..
d others?? bayang-bayang pun tak nampak oh..
carwyn n i kept asking Wen Fu to go coz he is d class rep,but he still didnt want to..
anyway,d event was fun,the performances were great..
and yeah,Carwyn,u've done a GOOD job !! well done ! =]
went jusco wit marcus n ken choong after d event..
jusco was like,a dead market,ppl wasnt much..
got empty parkingS somemore,just imagine how great is d power of H1N1..
our skul,SBS [skul of business studies],2 students were tested positive for H1N1,another is from SSSH [skul of social science n humanities]...
i was like,"gosh,H1N1 is just around us"...
God bless,hopefully tis H1N1 will settle soon..
scary man,i can spot a number of students wearing mask to skul..
heard some rumours saying tat skul going to be closed down if it it reaches 4 cases..
but i personally dun think so,skul is not going to close down unless it's really widely spread..
but hopefully skul will close down soon,can go home ma..
tat's wat we always have dream bout,wahaha...
*evil grin* =p
cant wait to go home.. =X
i miss my mum,my dad,my brother,my grandfather n my HOME..
hahas.... (:
i gained back weight dy,so dun worry lar,especially to few of them..
i wont be psycho again,my bro everyday keeps asking me to eat..
can say i eat non-stop,especially in his room..
his room is like a store,complete wit loads of food.. hahas...
i lepak at my bro's room EVERYDAY,after skul n surely every night..
sometimes we walked out to TBR n yumcha,d whole gang went out n im d oni girl among all d guys.. ):
neway,enjoy life..
luckily d degree of homesick is now less than 50% i suppose..
haha..
next month there'll be exam,OMG..
i still havent study for it,physics n chemistry kill me..
they are HARD,much more difficult than wat i expect..
Clement u r right,Physics is apparently a new thing to us,as in comparison to d SPM's..
hopefully can cope wit these two subjects..
i dun wan my scholarship to be withdrawn..
God bless me...
planning my days !!!
ciaox !

*RANDOM*

i reached here on sunday night around 10.30pm..
had homesick again on monday,cried in front of andrea i skul.. ashamed of myself..
tuesday even worse,cried many times in skul,shud say crying non-stop..
lecturer was teaching in front n my tears were dropping non-stop..
my frens knew coz they saw my eyes were watery...
so,i said i will be ok soon..
so PAISEH man..
neway,i felt better on wednesday till today..
yesterday[thursday] went pasar malam wit my bro,marcus,jun wei n his gf,shu wen n shu yong..
came back to hostel at around 8.30pm n bathed..
lepak at my bro's there n ate d food we bought..
damn freaking full..
went back to hostel at around 1.15pm...
asked jun leong to reserve court coz we r going to play badminton on sunday..
he agreed,hahas... :)
planned to play badminton near my bro's block tonight..
whoOts...
tat's cool,have a happy time coz today is friday,which means tat there will be two days break till skul starts again..
wahaha...
shud cherish these two days to do things tat i shud n i want..
=p
oh ya,im no more getting thinner coz d intensity of homesickness is deteriorating..
so,no worries everyone,especially to my dear mum,dad,n brother..
my dear jin leong n ah phin,dun worry oso,u guys nag me a lot asking me to eat eat n eat..
i got eat eat n eat,so no worries ma..
hahas.... :)
ok lar,blog till here..
lazy dy..
ciaoz..
=P

*...*

today owe him rm 700 = 7 hours..
walao eh..
i pokai dy lor..
hahas.. :)
but worth it lar..
tomoro will have a bbq party,hope to have a happy night b4 i leave home..
):
tomoro morning n noon,frens dated me,so may b packed d whole day long..
neway,have a nice day everyone !
Da Second,my Mr X appeared dy,but not d real Mr X ma..
he's not d one i love,so,forget bout him..
haha..
ur Mrs X oso will appear soon,ganbateh lar!!
haha..
everyone nitez!

*LIFE*

life is enuf when u feel enuf...
nothing is insufficient or too much..
hahas... :)
tat's my opinion lar,everyone agree??
sometimes leaving d world is better than staying here,facing all d obstacles in life..
i understand tat obstacles make us a tough person,building up a better person..
tat's oni true for those who can take it..
suicide cases occured coz they couldnt make their way thru d obstacles..
so wat?!
when it's time,no way u can avoid..
when it's not d time,no way u can leave..
tat's d theory..
i was scolded coz mentioned bout tis thing just now when sms-ing wit my fren..
anyway,he was like =.=",mengaku kalah..
hahas...
so,just forget bout it..
oh ya,wanna write something here so tat i will remember tis..
i owe jin leong 4 hours = 400 bucks..
he acc me to chat for 4 hours,so shud remember tis due to some reasons..
tis sunday going back to KL,kinda sad actually..
haix..
time flies,fast ! :(
today might be d last day of badminton till i back to KL,tomoro cancelled coz i got sth to do..
saturday got BBQ at night,my bro wants me to prepare everything at d noon time,so NO BADMINTON..
sunday going back KL,around 9pm reach KL SENTRAL..
haix..
gonna miss everything in perak,specifically batu gajah and pusing..
miss my family,my home,badminton gang n everyone..
im still waiting for my Mr. X ..
i feel lonely..
hahas... silly hor.. :)
neway,life being single is nice !!
but couple,nice if he suits u..
hehe.. =P
sometimes we need someone to be there for u,n yet he is not there..
so how??
suffer urself lor..
ok lar,lazy to blog..
see ya !!

*UPDATE*

these couple days my mood wasnt good,but i dun noe d reason anyway..
feel a bit lifeless again..
forget bout tat,come to the topic.. just want to update wat i did recently coz im lazy to study now,let me slack sometime blogging..
hahas.... :)
i play badminton everyday from 31st of May till today,n sure for d following few days too..
got nothing to do at home,so i decided to play everyday n i enjoyed it very much...
last sunday went to play badminton again n d guy asked for my number,again..
tis time he himself asked me coz all of us sat near to each other[the players in tat two courts]..
he asked for my number n i gave him plenty of good reasons to reject his request..
haha.. i told him i didnt use hp,he said im cheating him coz he saw me using hp..
den i said,tat's my father's phone n blahblahblah... i was dare to reject him coz we were chatting in a big group n everyone listened to d conversation,i can just point a finger at anyone n ask him to get from them coz im sure tat they wont give,i rasuah them ady.. wahaha...
=p
jin leong n yin keong kept laughing at us,btw,he still didnt get my number.. *thank God*
we played till bout 7pm n d uncles' gang came,which include d guy who got my number from jin leong few weeks ago..
i was freakingly nervous,didnt noe y i sked tis ppl so much,n we often call him as yellow-car-people coz tat's d colour of his car,yellow..
he was watching me playing,indirectly lar.. i lose 3 points,consecutively coz i sked to see him.. haha..
d uncles clapped hands when i smashed,n not one time,not two times but a few times..
made me more nervous... ARGHH!!
d game ended,n 4 of us[jin leong,yin keong,a tall guy who we call him as "fruit seller"n myself] sat behind d court,chatted n watched them playing..
jin leong : see,he plays so semangat when u r here..
me : yorr.. stop tat lar,im afraid of tis ppl very very much.. arghh...
jin leong : yalar,i noe.. just now 3 points gone because of him,i noe ah.. haha..
yin keong : oh,no wonder lar.. now i noe d reason dy.. haha..
me : neh,at jin leong lor,gave my number to him,betray me... argh!
jin leong : next time come here n remember to bring a mask so tat they wont ask for ur number..
yin keong : yea,tat's ryte.. tis afternoon,d guy asked for ur number again.. haha..
me : tat's y i point to jin leong n u asking hinm to get it from u two,dun KACAU me.. haha..
jin leong : ah keong doesnt have ur number lar,he cant give.. haha..
yin keong : yalor.. btw,wat's ur number..

n from there,ah keong got my number dy.. wahaha...
on d same day,a guy who joined our gang few days ago came.. he chatted wit jin leong n asked many questions,n keep boasting bout himself..
from there,he got to noe my name n lil' bit bout me..
he did praise my playing skill after i ended d game wit yin keong..
he is a good player,his skill isnt bad..
jin leong n yin keong bet tat tis guy will ask for my number d next time when he come again..
n yeah,u two were ryte..
he asked my number on d following day n tat's no reason for me to reject coz he was chatting wit me face-to-face,n oni two of us were there.. :(
he boasted again,telling me tis n tat..
he knew lot of my cousins coz they studied in d same skul b4,n i got to noe lot bout him,n finally i knew tat he is LSY's brother..
i was like 'wat-the-hell lor..'
some of u may noe d reason y i said so... GRRRR!!!
btw,i still ok wit tis person lar,no big deal..
he sms-ed me tat night,chatted a while n i said i was driving,chat next time..
hahas...
phin came over my house n stayed a night wit me 2 days ago.. tat night we went out yumcha n guess wat,i saw d guy tat asked for my number many times but still didnt get it.. his fren saw me n told him,he waved his hand to me indicating "hello" n i just smiled as a reply..
yerrr !! tis is another ppl who i shud avoid !!
yesterday morning went to play badminton for 3 hours n ah phin went home after tat coz she got something to do..
at night went to play badminton again wit ah phin,wai wah n ah chow..
on d way to clearwater,when we were in front of Green House,a car bang our car.. n d position was exactly a lil' behind my seat..
i was shocked n luckily not very serious,but it spoilt our mood..
GRRRR!!!!!!!! hate tat fella,she was d one wrong n she still rude to us.. WTH lar !!
okiee,forget bout tat..
today yuk kwan got badminton competition n i went there..
not very interesting..
after d competition,jin leong,yin keong,chee choong n yee siang played..
jin leong's pair won.. tat 3 matches were d most interesting after all..
haha.. (:
btw,today was d 1st time Shou Suian smile n say Hi to me..
he is tai choong's son n i knew him for quite sometime but never talked b4 coz he got my number from wui huong..
so,it's normal tat we didnt talk to each other when we meet,hahas... =X
one more thing,today is my DARLING's birthday,how can i forget ryte??
haha...
Happy Birthday,MPY !!!
sorie coz cant accompany u today coz i need to stay at home at tat time to look after my lil' bro coz no one at home..
btw,i wished u last night n hope "someone" got wish u lar.. hehe.. =P
last thing,i hope my decision of rejecting someone was correct..
quite miss him,frankly,but we seldom sms dy,erm.. due to some reasons..
nowadays i sms wit jin leong d most coz he noes most of my problems..
ok lar,got nothing to say dy,tired dy..
wanna study ler..
haix...
ciaoz !

*AM I COOL??*

Am i cool??
a friend of mine told me,"U look cool,from d very 1st time i met u,d 1st thing in my mind was,u r cool.. i was shocked when i noe u r from perak,somewhere near ipoh.."
my friend is from ipoh,saying tat ipoh is full of lala zai n lala mui [mostly lar ]..
i agreed,but some oni lar.. not all..

Fren : U look cool,seriously.. i like ur style..
Me : Err... Do i??
Fren : Yea,Ipoh ppl mostly very lala.. but u arent..
Me : I look cool,but i aint tat cool... haha... =x

Anyway,leave me some comments..
Do i look cool?
Or
Am I really cool??

If yes,tell me why..
If no,tell me why,as well.. describe me,comment me..
hahas...
thanx everyone..
hope to get some comments from u guys,whoever..

*TAG*

too bored,n lazy to study,slacking around blindly... Gee...
just ate dinner,today swallowed too many things,food la i mean.. =P
making myself too heavy to run,so,ended up playing badminton for just a couple hour.. WAT THE HELL lor..
tomoro,as usual,badminton again..
wahahaha... =X
ok,i d mean time,tis is wat i decided to do !!
hahahss !!

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People
1) Thanx 4 ur everything,i do cherish !!
2) I admire u,mean it !! :)
3) Hate u,mean it too ! Lol~ [p/s : different ppl ah..dun misunderstand]
4) Love u both,Dad n Mum !! i wish i could say it from my mouth,but sorry i cant make it.. but i do mean in,deep DEEP in my heart !
5) Either stand near me,show me tat u do care for me !! Or leave me alone,u r making me sick !!
6) I want to be rich !! wahaha..
7) I want to excel !! hohoho~~
8) I want a H-A-P-P-Y life !! =x
9) I'm emotional n i admit it,SO,tolerate me if u can.. i noe it's difficult,sorie for my attitude..
10) I wont forgive nor forget u,u changed me freaking much n i HATE everything u did !!!!!!!

Nine things about myself
1) Emotional :/
2) Perfectionist,dun dare to lose~ ):
3) I love badminton !! =p
4) Im imperfect in wateva aspects,so wat?! Find a perfect half !! =x
5) Easily distracted
6) Hate making decision
7) Hate to be alone n yet,im always lonely :(:(
8) I miss someone :(
9) Love day-dreaming,crap lots !!

Eight ways to win my heart
1) Say "I love U" to me face-to-face,neither thru msg nor calling me thru phone to tell me.
2) Cheer me when im sad,protect me when i feel insecure.
3) Be cool,but not to me.
4) Be urself.
5) Be crazy wit me,live a happy life ! wahaha !! :):)
6) Be friendly n talkative,hehess.. =p
7) Dun be a two-sided face person,be LOYAL !!
8) Be humorous.. =x

Seven things that cross my mind a lot
1) Studies.
2) Money.
3) The person-S i miss/admire.
4) Myself.
5) Badminton gang.
6) How will my future be?? *wonder*
7) Did i make d right choice ?? i dun noe,seriously..

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1) Study.
2) Yawning. :)
3) Think of d decision i made.. Am i right? Sorie if i was wrong !
4) Set alarm.
5) Look if there's any msg in my cell phone.
6) Go pee.. =x

Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
1) God. =x
2) Mummy n Daddy n Brothers,in short,all my family members.
3) Friends,especially a few of them !! thanx guys n gals ! :)
4) Dearest teachers !!
5) Future partner !!

Four things your wearing right now
1) Mickey-T.
2) Shorts.
3) Inner clothing* paisehhh =p
4) Specs.

Two things you want to do before you die
1) Tell everyone tat im dying soon,apologise for wat i did n give everyone a warm hug !! *silly hor??* =p
2) Sorie to dad n mum for being an irresponsible daughter,sorie to leave but im grateful in such a way tat u two gave me chance to set my very first footstep on d Earth n get to noe d human in Earth !! Without any of u,im nothing !!

One confession
I hope Mr. X will turn up soon,save me from tis lonely journey !! I want to change myself !! =p

*TIRED BUT WORTH IT*

yesterday went to play badminton from 2pm till 10pm..
bwahaha...
a solid 8 hours,enjoyed it freakingly much.. hahas... :)
at 1st went there to play from 2pm till 5pm wit jin leong,xian ling,zheng ling n kar chun..
later on,from 5pm till around 6pm played single wit jin leong coz d others went back dy..
at 6pm another group came,they were d few guys whom i played wit on sunday,dun rili noe them..
they asked me to join them but jin leong said he wanted to play wit me,asking them not to kacau..
haha..
den here came wong yin keong,finally i joined them n jin leong went home to bath n came back at 7pm to play wit another group[uncle's group]..
wong yin keong,tat 2 guys n me played double,yin keong n me a group whereas the 2 guys a group..
out of more than 5 matches,they oni won us once..
so SONG,rili cherished tat much.. enjoyed it,seriously..laughed like hell coz tat 2 guys kept blaming each other,but of cos in a joking manner lar..
den jin leong came back n a lot of uncles[young+old] came,so we had to stop n decided to go home..
den d uncles stopped us n asked us to join them,there were not much ppl in tat group.. on the other hand,another 2 courst were fully filled wit ppl,quite a number..
so,we joined n i was d oni girl in d big big hall..
apparently,very rarely can see a girl there..
so,we played till around 9.30pm,my partner was jin leong n yin keong..
kinda nervous to play wit those uncles,MAKLUM LAR,they all so geng..
but anyway,still enjoyed much..
after tat,all uncles went back n oni left wit tat few guys n me..
so,we played double n some awkward moment made us laugh madly..
hehes... =P
at last,i played single wit yin keong,as he requested n surely i wont decline..
1st round i won,second round he won n third round i won..
so,overall i won..
didnt expect tat i will defeat him,he is such a good player..
hahas... :)
he was like breathless after d game,mayb he seldom played tat long time lar..
but we all had a happy day..
reached home at bout 10.15pm..
n i skipped meals for d whole day..
slept at 3am last night,woke up at 8am tis morning..
went to play badminton on sunday as well,played wit my gang n d guys' gang joined us coz they intended to do tat when i 1st entered d hall..
played for bout 4 hours..
a guy asked few of my frens to get my hp number,luckily they didnt give or else i gonna kill them..
last 2 weeks,my number was given to a guy,he is oso one of them who plays badminton there,but no doubt he is rili very GENG,admire his playing skills very much..
he kept sms-ing me n i said my hp is out of credit,im not free blah blah blah..
yesterday clement sms-ed me asking me to join them watching terminator: salvation today at jusco,i declined coz wanna play badminton..
lols... (:
tomoro going to play badminton again at pusing..
wahaha...
im a BADMINTON FRENZY!!!!
lurv badminton much..
from badminton,i got to know a lot a lot of ppl,ranging from 12years old till 20+,30+,40+..
haha..
badminton keeps me alive...
whoohooo..
k lar,shud study after tis..
ciaozxx..