now it's 3.20am[sunday-31st of May]..just did some research for GP,will be going to pengkalan one of these few days to pass these infoS to Andrea,for our group presentation after d 2 weeks break..today is my 1st day back to hometown,was excited since friday,but den felt quite down just now..reached here today at around 11.45am,phin fetched me n we went yumcha wit ah chow..mum nagged me today,"u look pale again.. getting thinner again.. pity u.."main reason is,walked too much in college n psycho for some time,homesicking much..haix..ah chow n ah phin said d same thing,"eii.. thin jor.."went to uncle's shop,2 of my aunts n my uncle again repeated d same thing to me..haix,dun repeat tis to me again..now im back to my home,sure will gain back tat few KGs,ok?? i will keep eating,no worries n stop nagging,mum..i will take good care of myself..recently in hostel,always went to TBR wit bro n frens..on friday night,we went to TBR n ate there..after tat we walked back to hostel n hung around d area,walking here n there..at around 9pm we played badminton till around 11pm n bathed..apparently,all of us are those so-called-SOT SOT ppl.. we went to yumcha at TBR,which is quite a distance from hostel,went out at roughly 12.30am n back at around 2.30am..den we went back to our respective block+room..i studied till 4.45am n slept till 6.50am to prepare to go home[saturday morning]..woohooo..in d train,again i read my chemistry till i reached BG..freaking tired today,but still i dun intend to sleep early..had a nice chat wit my dad n mum tis evening..guess wat,my mum told me tat my dad worried bout me during d time i was in KL until he had nightmareS..sorie dad for making u worry..i noe d reason u had nightmare,coz u heard i cried in d phone..*paiseh betul*:/:/hahas.... went to pasar malam n met wit mpy,finally i noe who were u missing all this while,mpy.. is HIM,muahaha...felt bit depressed,sorrow after chatting wit my aunt..i was freakingly worry bout my studies,my aunt advised me not to drop GP,but i aint having any confidence to score well in it..erm... just give it a shot..need to cherish these 2 weeks,brush up on every subject..haix...btw,below are some pictures wit my classmates as well as those ppl involved in d HUMAN MONOPOLY game i mentioned in one of my previous posts..
[B]ao[Y]ee & [C]lement
[G]reen[S]parrow[G]roup
[Z]hi[M]ei,[K]at & [B]ao[Y]ee
[L]eng[C]hai in my class-->SN10d
now is ady 1.20am..tomoro got lesson at 8am,needa wake up at 7.05am..so excited in d moment,coz going back to BG on saturday morning..hoorayyy!!!!tomoro end class at 2pm n den will be having a farewell for michelle,who is our class rep for these 3 months.. she is going to switch to another college,which means tat she is no more in TARC after d 2 weeks break..kinda miss her,she is a nice girl,a responsible class rep..after d farewell,i'll be going to library n perhaps going to SBS to help ah len to have a look on her new timetable..after tat,going back to hostel n pack things..tat's all for now,many eyes staring at me now..so,better stop..hahas...ciaozx n nitezx..:):)
last friday,we[SPUS students] were supposed to have class but it was cancelled due to a programme which was carried on on tat day..tis game was opened to all students especially SPUS students..so,all of d SPUS classes were cancelled,altogether were about 11 classes..we went to d sport complex n joined d game,it was named "human monopoly"..once we entered,there was lots of people n we didnt know wat shud we do..so,we just walking around blindly,n suddenly a voice,"Bao yee n friends,please come over here n sit there.."oh my gosh,clement called my name,using the mic somemore..i was hiding my face,didnt expect tat he will remember my name..he is d president of d SWC of SPUS,quite a high post..he is a guy from ipoh,sam tet,who i knew on d 2nd day of orientation,which was 12nd of May..our group consisted of Andrea,Carwyn,Pun Pun,Open,Bella n few more girls including me..our group's coordinator was Yih Da who is a guy elder than us by 1 year n he is a SPUS student as well,but he is d January intake batch..the game started n we had to run like hell,rushing to each station in order to be punctual..d 1st session ended n we went back to d sport complex at around 12pm,we had our lunch n sat there for another game..it was a new game invented by clement n his gang,d game was interesting but is was horrible..dun noe how to describe the game,but it wasnt bad lar..later then,when we were all resting,clement came down n chatted wit me..we took a picture n he asked for my number..i gave him n didnt expect tat we made frens coz he is d so-called-leng chai tat we think most of d girls will like him..but im not close wit him.. he stays in d same block as my bro,a hostelian as well..hahas..d game ended at around 4pm..i went home wit ah len n jing le..reached home,had dinner n packed my things..on saturday around 12pm,my uncle fetched me n went to hostel to place my things..den we went to d so-called satay stall,oni selling satays,n ate there..den we went to old town white coffee,on9 there till my brother reached..went to fetch him n back to hostel again..later,my brother n i followed my uncle to his house n stayed there one night..we went to pasar malam n had our dinner,n den bought some food back home,n den fried fishes..had our supper n watched tv till around 1.30am..den my brother n uncle slept n i was reading books till 2sth n slept..went back to hostel on sunday noon,helped my bro to pack his things,n played badminton in front of his block till around 7pm..went back to my room,went to bath n went to TBR to eat..my roommate is a girl from cheras,she is quite nice but we seldom talk coz not close yet..so,tat night i studied till 1am n slept..yesterday was d 2nd night i was in hostel,went down at 10pm wit my bro,sat at canteen n ate 1 and a half burgers.. wahaha... :)den went back to our rooms respectively at around 12pm..fell asleep on my bed wit d light still on..i think it was my roommate who closed it later on..hehes... :)thanx to her..now is tuesday evening already,just went library n now im in CIT centre..still raining n i dun wan to go back to room 1st,or else i'll be moody n emo again..brother has class till 9pm..mayb tonight will go down to canteen wit him again..looking forward to saturday,will be going back to BG..hahas...4 more days to go..hooray.... *clap hands*tat's all for d moment,take k everybody..ciaOzxX..
:(:(:(:(I WANT TO GO HOME !!!!!i miss my home dearly,so much tat i keep crying all d time..even if i dun cry,i think u can noe thru my face expression..i m so lifeless,i want to go home..i want my mum,my dad..i want my brothers..i want my elder brother to come here ASAP..still got 6 more days to go..time seems so slow..i was like ages here,but im just 7 days at here including today..time is passing so slow..i want to go HOME..sobs sobs sobsss....d CCTV in d lift here were out of function few days ago n 2 cases of theft happened..two girls reported to d police n d thiefs havent been caught yet..tis makes me feel more insecure..i miss u all very very much..:(:(nth much i can do other than blogging,i can just express my feeling here..i can say other than on9,i will be reading books.. i try hard to distract my mind from thinking too much bout my family,my home,by reading books.. apparently,it brings no difference..tears still pouring,my books gone wet..whenever i write bout family,either in sms or blog,im sure to cry..i shud say whenever i think of them,i'll be so upset..i m missing my home so terribly..just now when i went on9 in msn,a few ppl chatted wit me..thru my personal msg,they shud noe why m i sad..i cried each n everytime they ask me bout my recent life over KL,i rili cant endure anymore..everyone is comforting me,i noe.. but how?? i still cant control d pouring down of my tears..let me cry cry n cry,i will feel better..but apparently still d same,i can say a little bit better after crying,but my mood isnt any differ,still as sour as tat..missing my home so badly..tomoro skul again,i think d feeling is still d same..brushing teeth,tears gonna roll down..teacher teaching,tears filled up my eyes..hopefully during d orientation,i will feel better..yea,today i gonna skip meals again,dun ask me to eat..i got no mood to eat,no appetite to eat..i guess if my mum calls me tonight,i m sure to cry again..but i will try hard not to let her noe tat i cried..i noe dad n mum worry me a lot,i try hard not to let them worry..yesterday i sms-ed wit my brother n he adviced me not to be so sad,1 week later he will come here n i gonna move in to hostel..he said,by tat time,we can play badminton together..i noe he was trying to comfort me,but tis makes me feel more sad..haix...neway,thanx to him,at least i expressed my feeling to him..tat's all for now,crying now..got no energy to continue on..:(:(:(
aikss...i wanna go home...sob sob sobsssssss...i keep sobbing these few days..last thursday was d most sorrowful day during tis 1st week in KL..it was a rainy day,n as my frens noe,my mood will be terribly bad especially during rainy day..i hate rainy day,i lurv sunny day much much more..my mood was moody after i was back from college,which was around 4.30pm..i bathed n ah len was sleeping,i wondered how come she can sleep d whole day long at home.. not enuf ahh??btw,she hasnt start skul yet,so definitely she can relax all d while..after i took bath,i sat on d dining table n started reading the chemistry book,it's so so so tough...i cant understand wat the hell it's talking bout.. ARGHHH!!!tis sadden me more..plus on,i was missing my home terribly,i miss my dad,my mum,my brothers,my grandpa,my room,my bed,my house n everything...:(:(:(:(i didnt eat d whole day on thursday,i was missing my home badly..i cried from d time i went home till night.. non-stop,whenever n wherever,my tears kept rolling down.. sobsssSSSS...my brother called me tat night n he said tat i was weird,my voice sounded like i was having flu,i told him nothing,i guessed he knew y my voice was weird..i cried everyday,whenever i wake up n prepare to go to skul,i feel like crying n wanna go home so much..on friday,in d 1st lesson which was bio,my mood wasnt any better than thursday.. lecturer was teaching n tears filled up my eyes.. almost rolled down my cheek,luckily didnt..i was feeling so lonely,i want my family,i want my mum n dad,my brothers..after lessons ended,i went to CITC to make my ID card n den to hostel to asked for the hostel thingy..oni 5 places left.. WTH!!so,i called my bro n let him noe..he said he will go to buy d bank draft n pos laju to me..but,according to d person-in-charge in d post office,saying tat d bank draft will reach KL on monday coz their aint operating on sat n sun..my bro told me tat he will come to my living place immediately n reach here at bout 10sth..unfortunately,d train tickets were sold out..so,my parents said tat they will come to KL on saturday morning,which was tis morning..wow.. when i heard tat,my feeling instantly changed..i was on d cloud nine..am i dreaming?? no,im not..so happy man.. so,i woke up at 6.40am tis morning n got myself prepared..they reached my place at 7am sharp..so,i went down n had breakfast wit them n went to SAD at 8.15am..luckily i got a place in hostel.. a good news for me..i hate living in PV3,i feel so insecure,so lonely..so,after i settled all the things,i went up to my room in hostel n checked everything..n den we went back to my living place in PV3 n pack those things tat i didnt use here,n brought them to d hostel..later after tat,we went to KLCC n back to wangsa maju n had our lunch..tat was d time i started to feel sad again..my family will be going home after tat,so,they sent me to PV3 n my parents wait in the car while my brother n his gf will accompany to the lift..i almost cried out when i wave my hands to say bye-bye to my parents... :(:(:(:(tears filled up my eyes..den when i reached d lift,i waved my hands to my elder bro n his gf..again,tears filled up my eyes..i didnt want to see them until i went inside d lift,when d lift's door is going to be closed completely,i looked n my bro n waved my hands to him.... :(:(:(:(when d lift was moving up,i cried in d lift.. (ashames of myself-d lift got CCTV)reached in front of my so-called house,part of d apartment,i cried badly n i wiped my tears b4 i went in so tat ah len wont see me crying..so,now i m on9-ing n everything is still OK now..i laughed much wit ah len coz on9 can keep me away from thinking sad things..but i still cry out when i m writing tis blog,which is now(ah len is bathing,so she doesnt noe)..i will stop.. *promise* coz if i still dun stop,ah len will noe tat im crying,she will say,"aiyahh.. cry wat lar,nothing geh.. haiz.."i can say,she will never comfort me,coz i noe her very well..but nvm,she is not the kind tat will comfort ppl when they are sad..so,no offence,i wont blame her for anything..just let me cry,k??i will be going home on 29th or 30th of May,coz i will be having a 2 weeks holiday,which is d same like those government skuls..yea,i cant wait for tat..i miss my home very super duper freaking much..i rili miss my home..arghHH!!!mind borrow me ur shoulder,i want to cry..i want my family,i want to stay wit them..i feel so lonely n moody here..sobsobsobsss..):):):):):):i want to go home..haix....neway,try to comfort me bah.. i need u guys a lot to comfort me coz i cant express all these to my family coz everytime they call me,i m sure to cry on d spot..i hear their voice,i miss them,i cry.. tat's it..tears will roll down automatically..neway,wanna bath now..no mood to resume n i think tis blog is long enuf..
my blog has become a dead blog,aiksss...nowadays so difficult to get to on9 coz i m now studying in KL..got no internet access in my place here in melati utama..the house owner promised tat we can get to on9 but when i came here,she told me tat she hasnt settle d internet thingy..wat the heck!! so bored over here..i m now in the CC below my living place wit my housemate,ah len..skul started on monday,n today is d 3rd day ady..1st day went to skul was such a miserable day..in d morning when i wanted to taxi to skul,there wasnt much ppl goin to KTAR,so i had to pay 4 bucks in order to get to skul.. no choice.. :(d skul is so damn huge n all of d freshmen were having difficulties in finding a particular place..luckily i couldnt find d place called DK B,n i wasnt late.. *clap clap* hahas...DK B is a a very warm hall,hate tat very much.. d number of students are more than expected,overwhelming..no choice,we had to switch place to DK C instead of DK B..d whole day was packed wit those briefing of every subjects..it was rili at tiring day for me as we needed to walk a very long pathway in order to go to another place.. *sigh*i got to know a new fren on d 1st day who came from perak oso,but in kampar..glad to noe her,her name is pun pun n she is a nice girl..on d way back,it was not easy to get a taxi as most of d courses havent commence,oni A-level n STPM students have started their studies..but at last i still able to get a taxi wit another 3 girls who were oso going back to MU.. i reached home at about 3.30pm n i started to SMS but fell asleep half way coz too tired..i was rili missing my home so damn much..i miss my mummy,i miss my daddy,i miss my grandfather,i miss my brothers,i miss my room,n basically everything in perak..haix... i felt so hard to get used to the life here..i felt insecure all d time,mayb i was being pampered too much in house..so,it's difficult for me to survive on my own..but anyway,i hope when time passes on,i will be able to get used to tis kind of life..thanx to all those who supported me so much in these few days,especially my family members n my frens such as ka lai,juntheng,jin leong,suet kee etc..n thanx to may kee for ur msg..i didnt get JPA as well as IPTA.. wanted to appeal for JPA but d website is so SO jammed!!today d course commenced,the lecturers want us to buy d text books,but i was in dilemma..shud i buy or not??d books coz bout 120 bucks,90 bucks,etc.. altogether will cost rm 460..walao ehh..if i buy d books n lucky enuf to get d matriculation,den d 460 bucks will gone..d lecturers do not allow us to photocopy d books.. WTH!!haix..wat shud i do???just now i asked my goo-goo for advice n she asked me to buy..i will ask my mum tonight n decide later on..haix..anyway,hopefully eveything will settle as soon as possible..i miss my home,miss my family members,miss my dearest frens n especially HIM..so might now who he is,eventhough i havent give him an answer,just bear in mind tat i always think of u..tomoro need to go to college at 8am n it will be a packed day for me,lessons will end on 4pm n i needa go to d SMS(science n maths society) meeting which is at 4pm.. mayb will reach home by 5pm..haix.. another tiring day..i hate to take taxi,i hate staying here,i hate tis kind of life,i feel so insecure,when my mum calls me,my tears will automatically roll down,i hate to be away from home for so long..BUT I GOT NO CHOICE..i m going to switch back to hostel soon,when my bro back here later on..he is having his sem break now..when i switch back to hostel,i will feel safer as my bro is there n i dun need to take a taxi by then..a good news to share is tat d SPUS students will have a two weeks break in d early of JUNE,hooray...i can go home for 2 weeks.. wahaha... :):):)now i get to know a lot of frens here,clement,catherina,ken soon,yuges,pei ling,kimberly,tommy,carwin,michelle,julia,andrea etc..hopefully i will noe more frens here n looking forward to stay in hostel soon..shud end my blog now,blabbered too much..ciaozz..take k everybody till d next blog..
i was suprised when he proposed to me..he is a shy guy,and i always tell him tat a guy shud be more brave,be a gentleman,dare to take action n not to b shy..i did say tat as a human being,we shud always appreciate our time,cherish every moment,grab opportunities..he did it...he told me tat d reason he changed to a braver guy is because of my advice..he is a very good guy,who can really tolerate wit me even when my mood is down..he noes lots bout me,he never gets angry wit me even when i m d one who does something wrong..thanx for ur willingness to borrow ur shoulder to me..i told him tat if i accept him,i cannot guarantee tat it will be forever..the journey of life is still long,if i find a better guy in d journey of life,i might leave him..those who read tis might feel tat i m a playgirl..i m not !! i said so because i was hurted once,d confidence to start a new relationship doesnt really exist..i have no confidence wit love relationship,i have no confidence wit myself..i did ask him tat if let's say in his journey of life,he finds a better girl than me,wat will he do..he answered : [direct translate from chinese] if i find a better guy than him,he will let me go coz he is sure tat d guy i found must be better than him in any aspects.. d guy must be able to give me happiness more than he can.. he oso said tat he is not sure whether he will find a better girl than me,but he is very sure tat d girl in front of his eyes now[which means me] is a girl who he feels worth to love.. no matter how far m i from him,he said tat doesnt matter,dating doesnt mean tat d couple must see each other everyday.. as long as they both believe in each other,never doubt each other,tat is ady enuf.. seeing each other rarely will be better as d couple will appreciate every chance of meeting each other..yea,he is absolutely right..i agreed wit his words.. he said he doesnt want an instant answer from me,he doesnt force me to say YES,he doesnt force me to love him..he just wanna propose me coz he remembers tat i told him we shud appreciate every given opportunity,dun wait until it's too late..regret is useless..he remembers every words tat come out form my mouth,even something tat i almost forget,he does remember..i noe him not long,but in tat short duration of time,he noes lots bout me..he cares me a lot.. no doubt..everytime when i m unhappy,when i m crying,he will sms n advice me,comfort me..i wanted to say YES,but i still dun have d confidence wit myself..furthermore,in 4 more days,i will be leaving home..which means tat i m going farther from him..btw,i still appreciate him a lot,no matter as my fren or my future partner..thanx for ur everything..i hope u read tis n dun angry coz i wrote tis out without ur knowledge..thanx lotss for ur advices,cares,and everything..
