*WOW*

today(29/05),i got my driving license..
hehex..
so good,finally i can drive car..
hahax..
at 1st was a bit nervous,but after a day,i was quite ok wit it..
kakax...

*NO NEXT TIME*

today(26/05),everything was over,tat was my thought.. n i hope it was d last time 4 me..
yesterday,his sis sms me n told me bout his condition,i m goin to sit 4 two big exams in my life today,so,my mind was a bit distrated,tat could b 1 of d reason y i did bad in my piano,during d time i was performing my pieces to d examiner,my mind was thinking bout tis problem..
may b after today,evrerything will b ok but i dont think tat it will b 4ever ok..
i will hav to faced it 1 day,n oso "u" too..
after i read d msg sent by his sis,i was rili feeling so depressed..
so,i decide to sms him n told him tat i will find him tonite(26/05)..i told him d things he should noe n i advised him..
finally,everything were ok but i m sure evrything wont b as usual,there will b a change 4 sure..
i din told "u" every single thing in my mind bcoz i noe tat u cant accept it eventhough u told me tat u can..but i rili will told u 1 day,so,pls dun make me angry,if not,"u" will suffer..

*26/5/08,DYING DATE*

today,i woke up at 7am n took a bath.. around 7.30am,"fei lao",my driving teacher,sent me to gopeng to sit 4 d driving test..

it started at around 9.30am when d pegawai jpj arrived..

i was so nervous,once d test started,n when it was ny turn,i jz tried my best..

i passed d 1st section,n waited 4 d 2nd section..

i was d 2nd last 4 session 1 in d 2nd section(jalan raya)..

actually i shouldnt b d 2nd last,but d guy tat r in-charge of taking name n d test card from us n arranged our turn to be tested on d 2nd section.. so,i jz sat at d chair after i had took d result of d 1st section.. i dun noe tat i should lend d card to tat ppl n get my position,later on my fren came,an ex-convent student,tat ppl asked d card from her n noted her position.. den oni i knew tat i should had my position tat time but tat ppl din asked from me.. i was damn angry tat time..

nvm,i jz lend him my card n my position was quite far,so,i will hav to wait 4 quite long as 1 ppl will took around 20 minute to complete it..

when it was my turn,d pegawai jpj went 4 lunch..

i was even more angry,i told tat ppl tat i will hav to sit 4 my piano exam after tat,n he din even noticed me,i felt lik wanna burst..

i called my mum n told her tat i m nt sure whether i hav enough time to complete d test b4 my piano exam,which i will hav to arrive at 3.30pm..

so,my mum told me tat my dad will took my piano exam books n fetched me after my test,straight away went to syuen hotel 4 my piano exam..

d driving test continue at around 2pm.. i had it n came back d route c(exam route) n i had pass my test..

quite happy but still scared 4 my piano exam,if i din practice d songs b4 exam,i will not played it well..

so,i m gonna die today 4 my piano last grade..

den,my dad straight away sent me to syuen hotel..

d piano exam took around 30 minutes..

after tat,i went home n i was quite sad coz i din did well in my piano..

neway,i was happy as i had pass my driving test..

*LACKING OF TIME*

24/05 was a damn busy day 4 me.. tis morning i woke up quite late,i woke up at 7.30am n took a bath n rushed to skul coz my skul was having a ceramah 4 d pbsm members.. i was 1 of d mc 4 d ceramah.. luckily i was not late.. there a lot of participants from different skuls,sys,smk pusing,tronoh skul n so' on.. a lot of my frens were there too..
d ceramah ended at around 1.30pm,once it finished,we went to canteen 4 lunch n i went home at around 2pm coz i m having my car driving practice at 2.15pm.. i reached home n prepared 4 my car driving practice.. d driving teacher came at around 2.20pm,i went to gopeng n learnt at there till 4.35pm.. i reached home at 5.10pm.. my tuition was 5.15pm,i took a bath n went to tuition..
at 1st i decided not to go,but since i still had time,i decided to go.. reached late better than din reached at all.. i reached there at around 5.40pm.. d tuition ended at 9.30pm wit a short rest in between.. so,d whole day i din had a rest at all,so damn tired but i still can endure till midnite n even morning 5,6am,tomoro nite(sunday) i will felt damn sleepy de laq..

*TEACHER'S DAY*

today (23/05) was teacher's day in my skul.. i was so tired,but i had expected tat b4..
tis morning i reached skul a bit late coz i was copying my speech on a small paper at home b4 i went to skul.. last nite was too tired n slept dy b4 i managed to copy it..
so,i did it tis morning.. i was so scared,not bcoz of my speech,but it was bcoz of d progression today.. i scared sri 4got to buy d sponge,onion n flour needed 4 d telematch game today..
i reminded her yesterday nite around 11pm coz none of us remembered tat yesterday..
well,everyone was so busy yesterday till we reached home at 7 something pm.. luckily,she managed to buy them wit cik aini..
so,i reached skul n straight away went to c sri n bring d present up to summer house..
she ady prepared d things needed 4 telematch n had brief may kee bout tat..
den,we went to meet amirah.. 3 of us went to pavillion n ask d prefects to decorate it wit balloons.. den we took d cake n put it in 4k classroom.. sri n i prepared d presents whereas amirah was preparing 4 her script as she was d mc.. i m d 1st to giv d speech,after arranging d present,i was invited to giv d speech..so,i headed towards d stage n started my speech,i was quite nervous tat time..
i tried to slow down my speed as yesterday pn. manimala told me tat i was too fast when giving d speech..
after my speech was d speech from d principal n d invited guest..
later was d ucapan perutusan followed by d ikrar guru n nyanyian lagu "guru malaysia"..
after tat was acara memotong cake,sri n i took d cake out,we were quite proud of tat coz it was a big cake compared to these few years n tis year was d most delicious among these few years.. d presents r oso d most creative.. those were wat teacher told us.. we were so happy..
after d presents were given,d telematch contest was goin to start..
amirah,sri n i were so bz preparing 4 it,finally we could start d game.. d game was rili interesting n so funny.. however my group(tun teja) was d 3rd place..
after d prizes were given,it was recess time 4 d afternoon girls n d f3,f4 n f5 girls had to enter d class.. i ady allocated d duty to d prefects to look after d class.. amirah n sri were goin to perform d drama to d afternoon session girls in skul hall,so,i had to patrol d skul alone n make sure tat all d prefects were doing their duty..
den it was our turn to enter d hall n watch d drama.. tat day we dismissed at 12 noon.. 3 of us went to d staff room n finished our job b4 goin back..
amirah n sri were doin their seimbas work whereas i would hav to send back d stuff we borrowed from pn norshidah,i went alone as they were bz wit their things,i jz let them did their things.. den i went home at around 1.30pm.. i din went 4 my tuition class at 2.15pm coz i m having piano lesson at 4pm.. my mum advised me to rest 1 day as she knew tat i was tired these few days,bz 4 d teacher's day,bz learning car 4 monday's driving test,bz 4 piano exam on monday too..
so i rested at home till my piano lesson time..
den i came back at 6.30pm.. i was so tired today 4 d teacher's day..
being a head prefect is not tat good,damn tiring..

*A HORRIBLE DAY*

today(22/05/08) was a terrible day 4 me.. as usual,i went to skul.. exam finished yesterday.. so,today i will b very bz preparing all d stuff needed on friday,which is a teacher's day.. i ady planned to ponteng kelas to discuss d things regarding friday's party n oso my speech.. today morning i will hav to give some brief to d students about d teacher's day.. my disipline teacher told me yesterday,"bao yee,tomoro u remind them about these few things again during d morning assembly".. i jz giv a blur look at her,i m trying to let her understand tat i dun wan to stand in front of so many ppl n talk.. but den,she said,"i wan to listen u talk,jz use d proper bm language is ok" n she smiled..
haix..
so disappointed n wat i can do is tat to accept her request..
so,tis morning i spoke in front bout d things n after i had finished,teacher told me tat i was talking so fast..
i jz smiled n walked away..
after morning assembly ended,amirah,sri n i went inside d prefect's room n sat on d floor doin our own things,as usual they all wit their seimbas stuff n i wit my speech 4 teacher's day.. later,punes came in n told amirah n sri tat they must enter their class coz pn gwen is goin to give back d bio paper.. so,after i had finished my speech,i went into my own class too..
tat time was chemistry lesson,when i entered d class,teacher was discussing d exam paper,i sat down n joined in d discussion..
after tat lesson,we went out from lab n entered our class..it was bm lesson,i went out from d class after i had got back my bm paper..
i meet sri n amirah in d prefect's room n continue our work,i help them doin seimbas stuff..
den,we went to c pn khairuz n pn kamisah.. i lend my speech to pn khairuz 4 checking of grammar whereas both of my frens were discussing wit pn kamisah bout their seimbas works.. when we were goin to went down,we were stopped by pn zakiah,she was asking us bout d ceramah held on 24/08,we took d surat n disappeared from d staff room.. on d way goin down,oh no,we almost 4got to c pn lai n pn norshidah.. we went to d office n c pn lai,we were commented on our telematch plan,so we discussed it wit teacher again n think of d changes needed to do.. after all,it was now pn norshidah's turn to c us..we ran back to d staff room to c her as we had promised to her yesterday to c d trolley whether it fitted d cake we bought..
we walked to bilik masakan wit d key from teacher,we took out knife n a few other things.. d trolley couldnt fit d cake,so,we would hav to think of other ways.. we headed towards d prefect's room after lending back d key to teacher..
we kept d stuff in prefect room.. den,we went to hav our breakfast,tat time d canteen was so quiet coz oni 3 of us were there,we got d permission to recess late..
later,d two assistants wanna enter class,wanna took d sej paper konon..in fact,they jz want to c tat "mr habib".. maklumlah,whenever there were a handsome guy,sure they all will headed 4 him n care 4 nothing even our job was still a lot..
me,was left alone,so i decided to enter d class,i took my homework from may kee n den i stood in front of 5sc2,cekak pinggang n looked at my 2 assistants,they jz asked me to wait them 4 a while using body language.. later,they dare to come out,"sanggup pun keluar,ada cikgu handsome,tinggalkan saya pulak,how dare u all,haha..",i said.. we continued our work in bilik seni,we managed to finish tearing off d price tag oni.. oh,it's time.. time 4 us to c pn lai again 4 our new plan,we were requested to prepare all d stuff by today.. haix,rili a tiring day 4 me..
after seeing her n settled d problem,we went 4 d prefect's meeting in summer house 2.. one of d prefect told me,"bao yee,cik suria wanted to use d summer house,so,where r we goin to gather??got meeting a not,it's ady time but havent c u all at there".. i said,"sorie laq,we jz finish d things.. come,we go to d hall,tell d other prefects too.." we started our prefects meeting,i took d attendance n arranged d duty 4 tomoro whereas sri n amirah asked them to blow d balloons n handle d other things.. deal,i finished d duty arrangement n read it aloud to them,there were some changes done.. it's time 4 us to go to jusco wit cik aini,she was waiting.. so we ended our meeting,but den,jas n punes wanted amirah n sri to stay 4 d drama practice.. they didnt allow us to go.. so,cik aini went to canteen to hav her tea.. later,sri n i went to make a phone call to secret recipe to inform them tat we were goin to take d cake.. we got into cik aini's car n start our journey.. we reached at around 3pm n d 1st place we went to was s&j,we bought ribbon n den went to hav our lunch wit teacher.. we took our cake n made d pay n went back.. on d way goin out from secret recipe,every1 was lookin at us strangely.. i knew y.. 1st,was our uniform,3 of us wit d same kind of uniform,which was a bit different from d ordinary student's uniform.. 2nd,was our cake,it was so big tat we had to took it 2 persons.. there was a scene where a woman,auntie,looked at d cake sharply n din noticed us at all,finally she stared at us,den she asked me as i was a chinese,easy to communicate wit her,she said..
"cake ar?"
"yup.."
"how much??"
"170 loq.."
"wat flavour,choc or blueberry or wat??"
"some sort lik choc.."
"oh".. "inside got cake ar??or jz an empty box??"
"sure got cake laq,real wan,not fake.."
"oh,tq ar.."
"welcome.."
those were our conversation,she finally went off n i told cik aini wat she asked me..
wat a strange women,i thought..
it was raining outside.. we waited at d front entrance 4 cik aini's car,2 guards come toward us n as us bout d cake.. 1 of them r sys's x-student.. den there was a woman(looks lik pn. ng) stared sharply on my name tag,i was lookin at her wit an angry look,she din even noticed me n kept lookin on my name tag,i purposely turn to another side so tat she cant c coz i did not lik ppl stared in tat way n din bother bout me.. den,she looked at amirah's name tag n amirah told me tat she din lik tat too..
wanna noe,y cant jz asked me,wat 4 wanna torture urself to look at my name tag so difficult..
jz a question,u can noe wat skul am i from.. haix,ppl r lik tat.. too free,no work to do..
den we entered d car once cik aini was there,d cake was so big till amirah n me couldnt move in d car,staying wit d same position till we reached bg.. on d way to bg,there was a traffic jam,so we reached bg late.. i thought it was 5.15pm,oh no,it was ady 6.15pm,my watch "sot" dy.. haix.. i din called my mum.. we sent d cake to amirah's home n she will sent to skul tomoro.. we went to yi mi to take d laminated card after back from amirah's home.. we den went back to skul,tis was d 1st time i went to skul so late,around 7pm.. d afternoon classes had been dismissed too.. after dividing d job equally to cik aini n 3 of us,n oso printing out d name list,we went home hurriedly..
i requested cik aini to send me back 1st coz my tuition started at 7.15pm.. once i reached home, terrible,my dad scolded me n asked y i came back so late..
my mum too asked..
i said my watch was something wrong n when i wanna called back it was too late.. n we dun even had d time to call.. my mum was so worried,n she said she had called my bro to get my ah len's hp number to ask her where was me,n she had oso went to d tuition centre to asked where was me too..
my dad too went to skul searching 4 me,seeing d teacher to noe where i am.... both of them were so worried 4 me.. i was so sorry,rili rili felt guilty,sorry dad,sorry mum,sorry brother.. i had done something wrong,causing u all to worry 4 me.. SORRY.. i wont repeat wat i had done today..
i hope u all will 4give me..
but i noe they not oni din angry wit me,but still very love me n my mum treat me even better than b4.. may b she scared tat anything happened to me,n she will now more appreciate her children.. i noe tat was it,her thought n her feeling.. i understand wat was in her mind all tis while..
mum,i love u.. i wont let u worried lik today anymore..
she went to my tuition centre n carol told her tat i went to ipoh wit my teacher,den she felt a bit better.. teacher called pn zakiah to get cik aini's phine number,den when she called cik aini n cik aini din answer,she was driving n she off her hp sound most probably.. my mum started to worry again..
later skul called my dad n said tat i was safe wit my teacher.. so,they felt better after tat..
when i went home n threw all d things on my table,rushed to hav a bath n went to tuition..
i was a bit late tat day,actually i should had my tuition 2 times,d 1st round is 4pm-6.15pm,bt i sacrified it jz bcoz of d teacher's day..
so once i entered my tuition centre,teacher asked me wat was goin on,i told her everything..
i sat down n joined d class,i was still feeling guilty,so,i jz sat down quietly,i still got chat wit frens but i knew there was something in my heart.. den kakak called me n told me tat jz now my mum came there t find me,she said my mum's eyes were reddish in colour n watery,i knew she was too worried 4 me n she told teacher tat i was a responsible daughter,i never being so irresponsible lik today b4,so she thought there must b something happened wit me coz i din called her.. tat's d reason she so worried,i m so sorry,mum.. she told me tat if i still din went home,they r goin to report it to d police,den i will b very popular dy.. they r preparing to go out during d time i reached home.. when i heard wat kakak told me,tat time my heart was even feeling not comfortable,a lot of things were in my mind,i felt tat i had done something rili stupid,i was letting my mum worried bout me,i shouldnt did tat,i thought..
neway, i hope tat i will never did tat anymore.. nope!! i should said tat,i promised,i wont did tat anymore.. i wont let them worried anymore.. i finished tuition at 9.30pm,my mum fetched me back.. on d way back,i chat wit my mum bout today's things.. she din even angry wit me,she jz told me tat she was worried bout me..
i knew i had been a bad daughter today,no next time,mum..
so,i reached home n prepared d presents 4 tomoro's teacher's day..my mum help me to finished them,i was so lucky to hav such a mum lik her..
she was d best mum in d world,in my heart,u r d best,mum..
tis was a terrible day 4 me,horrible better to describe it..
hahax..
tis was d 1st time lik tat,n i wan it to b d last time in my life too..
may god bless mum,dad,brothers,grandpa n all my family members as well as my frens..
thanx GOD..

*WORRY*

haix haix haix.. i thought i can relax after my skul's exams end..
but tat's not wat rili going on..
i still hav to sit 4 my piano exam,tis is d last grade.. i m so scared.. fear i will fail it..
same goes to my driving test.. scared i will fail it too..
both d tests,i mean piano exam n driving test fall on d same day..
it is on monday(26/05/08),my dying date.. may b so..
kekex..
morning driving test n evening piano exam.. wat's a catastrophe.. huhu..
cant imagine if it happens tat i fail both d exams..
may b i'll cry till flood,or may b i'll cry bt no tears will roll down..
kekex..
so many ppl advise me n giving me support.. so touching..
thanx to all my dear frenz..
u all r d best companions in my life..
i will try my best to overcome d fear n perform my best..
thanx to all of u..
may god bless u all..