*HURTFUL*

erm.. i dun feel good from last nite till now..
was happily chatting thru phone last nite,but felt very hurtful after a small matter..
yeah,it was a small matter,just few lines of words expressed from the voie cord,but it wasnt a small matter for me,in fact it left a big aftermath to me..
i cried,yeah,i really cried after sucha long time didnt drop tears !
althou it didnt seem serious,somehow it still give a big impact to my feeling,especially..
if it wasnt from his mouth,i bet i wouldnt be tis sad..
i just couldnt accept,it reminded me of the time i was psycho-ing..
i cried a lot,even after i hung up the phone,tears still couldnt stop rolling down..
i could hardly breath,suffocated !
i swept floor in d middle of the nite,the single little thing still wandering in my mind,tears dropped again !
stayed awake till around 4am,slept after that..
tis morning,eyes swollen.. CRAP !
went to phin's house,she noticed my eyes swollen and from my face and emotion,she knew tat im unhappy..
she sms-ed me jz now and asked wat happen.. i didnt tell her yet..
im moody the whole day,even until now..
im sad..
i try hard to forget bout it,do not think bout it,stay cheerful,think to the positive side.. i try to smile,not in a fake way.. i really try hard to do all these,but i failed !
let me be alone for sometime,i will be OK soon,very very soon..
=)