*FEELING BAD*

today i will be back to kl..
will go to KTM station around 12pm..
i feel very bad today,i dun feel like leaving home,i want to stay by my mum's side..
these two days i had been wondering how the life in my house will be after my brother and i left home-who to wash the clothes,who to hang the clothes,who to fetch my lil' bro around,who to do the house chores,who to wash the dishes after dinner,who to do this and that..
will the answer to all the WHOs is my dad?
i had been thinking much bout tis..
i want to stay by my mum's side,i rili want to.. but i have no choice.. :'(
i bet tis coming week will be my EMO week again..
*SOBSOBSOBSOBSOB*
on friday midnight(simply means saturday morning) around 3am,i fell asleep on the sofa till 5++am..
woke up and did some homework till 7am..
tidy up the things on all the tables in the dining room,clean my piano,swept the floor and mopped it..
after bathed went out to eat.. mum didnt follow coz it's inconvenient for her to move around here and there..
i felt a bit weird without her going out wit us.. :(
last nite had steamboat with relatives and friends..
my goo-goo,uncleS and cousins all came along to join the party and meanwhile,visiting my mum..
the party wasnt cancelled eventhou my mum wasnt in good condition coz tis was planned earlier and my brother said he can manage the things for the party..
i EMO almost all the time during that party,it shud be a very happy party for me but it turned to be the opposite coz i kept thinking bout leaving home today..
i felt very down and even cried in the toilet,not long-just for couple of moments coz i didnt want others to notice i sobbed..
party ended at 1am,tidied up the things.. even it was at 3.15am,i swept the floor and mopped it-hopefully i didnt disturb my family members who were all sleeping soundly..
i wanted to clean my house everyday,but i have to leave.. after we left,i wonder who is going to sweep the floor daily..
after that,i bathed and den rest till 5.45am and fell asleep in the dining room till 7am..
and now im blogging..
oni a few more hours left,my brother and me will have to leave home..
haix !
LBY,must endure ! dun cry,u can as what mum always says,try to look to the +ve side..
i will be coming back next friday regardless whether my brother wants to come back or not..
he said he wants to come back but not yet confirm whether it will be on friday or saturday..
anyway,even if he doesnt come back,im alone,i will still come back..
i will always tell myself to cheer up,to look forward..
i will try to be a +ve thinker,i will althou my mood is getting worse and worse !
mum,i will listen to u,i will try to be tougher..
LOVE YA,MUM !