*SUPRISED*

i was suprised when he proposed to me..
he is a shy guy,and i always tell him tat a guy shud be more brave,be a gentleman,dare to take action n not to b shy..
i did say tat as a human being,we shud always appreciate our time,cherish every moment,grab opportunities..
he did it...
he told me tat d reason he changed to a braver guy is because of my advice..
he is a very good guy,who can really tolerate wit me even when my mood is down..
he noes lots bout me,he never gets angry wit me even when i m d one who does something wrong..
thanx for ur willingness to borrow ur shoulder to me..
i told him tat if i accept him,i cannot guarantee tat it will be forever..
the journey of life is still long,if i find a better guy in d journey of life,i might leave him..
those who read tis might feel tat i m a playgirl..
i m not !! i said so because i was hurted once,d confidence to start a new relationship doesnt really exist..
i have no confidence wit love relationship,i have no confidence wit myself..
i did ask him tat if let's say in his journey of life,he finds a better girl than me,wat will he do..
he answered : [direct translate from chinese] if i find a better guy than him,he will let me go coz he is sure tat d guy i found must be better than him in any aspects.. d guy must be able to give me happiness more than he can.. he oso said tat he is not sure whether he will find a better girl than me,but he is very sure tat d girl in front of his eyes now[which means me] is a girl who he feels worth to love.. no matter how far m i from him,he said tat doesnt matter,dating doesnt mean tat d couple must see each other everyday.. as long as they both believe in each other,never doubt each other,tat is ady enuf.. seeing each other rarely will be better as d couple will appreciate every chance of meeting each other..
yea,he is absolutely right..
i agreed wit his words.. he said he doesnt want an instant answer from me,he doesnt force me to say YES,he doesnt force me to love him..
he just wanna propose me coz he remembers tat i told him we shud appreciate every given opportunity,dun wait until it's too late..
regret is useless..
he remembers every words tat come out form my mouth,even something tat i almost forget,he does remember..
i noe him not long,but in tat short duration of time,he noes lots bout me..
he cares me a lot.. no doubt..
everytime when i m unhappy,when i m crying,he will sms n advice me,comfort me..
i wanted to say YES,but i still dun have d confidence wit myself..
furthermore,in 4 more days,i will be leaving home..
which means tat i m going farther from him..
btw,i still appreciate him a lot,no matter as my fren or my future partner..
thanx for ur everything..
i hope u read tis n dun angry coz i wrote tis out without ur knowledge..
thanx lotss for ur advices,cares,and everything..