*HOMESICK*

aikss...
i wanna go home...
sob sob sobsssssss...
i keep sobbing these few days..
last thursday was d most sorrowful day during tis 1st week in KL..
it was a rainy day,n as my frens noe,my mood will be terribly bad especially during rainy day..
i hate rainy day,i lurv sunny day much much more..
my mood was moody after i was back from college,which was around 4.30pm..
i bathed n ah len was sleeping,i wondered how come she can sleep d whole day long at home.. not enuf ahh??
btw,she hasnt start skul yet,so definitely she can relax all d while..
after i took bath,i sat on d dining table n started reading the chemistry book,it's so so so tough...
i cant understand wat the hell it's talking bout.. ARGHHH!!!
tis sadden me more..
plus on,i was missing my home terribly,i miss my dad,my mum,my brothers,my grandpa,my room,my bed,my house n everything...
:(:(:(:(
i didnt eat d whole day on thursday,i was missing my home badly..
i cried from d time i went home till night.. non-stop,whenever n wherever,my tears kept rolling down..
sobsssSSSS...
my brother called me tat night n he said tat i was weird,my voice sounded like i was having flu,i told him nothing,i guessed he knew y my voice was weird..
i cried everyday,whenever i wake up n prepare to go to skul,i feel like crying n wanna go home so much..
on friday,in d 1st lesson which was bio,my mood wasnt any better than thursday..
lecturer was teaching n tears filled up my eyes.. almost rolled down my cheek,luckily didnt..
i was feeling so lonely,i want my family,i want my mum n dad,my brothers..
after lessons ended,i went to CITC to make my ID card n den to hostel to asked for the hostel thingy..
oni 5 places left.. WTH!!
so,i called my bro n let him noe..
he said he will go to buy d bank draft n pos laju to me..
but,according to d person-in-charge in d post office,saying tat d bank draft will reach KL on monday coz their aint operating on sat n sun..
my bro told me tat he will come to my living place immediately n reach here at bout 10sth..
unfortunately,d train tickets were sold out..
so,my parents said tat they will come to KL on saturday morning,which was tis morning..
wow.. when i heard tat,my feeling instantly changed..
i was on d cloud nine..
am i dreaming?? no,im not..
so happy man.. so,i woke up at 6.40am tis morning n got myself prepared..
they reached my place at 7am sharp..
so,i went down n had breakfast wit them n went to SAD at 8.15am..
luckily i got a place in hostel.. a good news for me..
i hate living in PV3,i feel so insecure,so lonely..
so,after i settled all the things,i went up to my room in hostel n checked everything..
n den we went back to my living place in PV3 n pack those things tat i didnt use here,n brought them to d hostel..
later after tat,we went to KLCC n back to wangsa maju n had our lunch..
tat was d time i started to feel sad again..
my family will be going home after tat,so,they sent me to PV3 n my parents wait in the car while my brother n his gf will accompany to the lift..
i almost cried out when i wave my hands to say bye-bye to my parents... :(:(:(:(
tears filled up my eyes..
den when i reached d lift,i waved my hands to my elder bro n his gf..
again,tears filled up my eyes..
i didnt want to see them until i went inside d lift,when d lift's door is going to be closed completely,i looked n my bro n waved my hands to him.... :(:(:(:(
when d lift was moving up,i cried in d lift.. (ashames of myself-d lift got CCTV)
reached in front of my so-called house,part of d apartment,i cried badly n i wiped my tears b4 i went in so tat ah len wont see me crying..
so,now i m on9-ing n everything is still OK now..
i laughed much wit ah len coz on9 can keep me away from thinking sad things..
but i still cry out when i m writing tis blog,which is now(ah len is bathing,so she doesnt noe)..
i will stop.. *promise* coz if i still dun stop,ah len will noe tat im crying,she will say,"aiyahh.. cry wat lar,nothing geh.. haiz.."
i can say,she will never comfort me,coz i noe her very well..
but nvm,she is not the kind tat will comfort ppl when they are sad..
so,no offence,i wont blame her for anything..
just let me cry,k??
i will be going home on 29th or 30th of May,coz i will be having a 2 weeks holiday,which is d same like those government skuls..
yea,i cant wait for tat..
i miss my home very super duper freaking much..
i rili miss my home..
arghHH!!!
mind borrow me ur shoulder,i want to cry..
i want my family,i want to stay wit them..
i feel so lonely n moody here..
sobsobsobsss..
):):):):):):
i want to go home..
haix....
neway,try to comfort me bah.. i need u guys a lot to comfort me coz i cant express all these to my family coz everytime they call me,i m sure to cry on d spot..
i hear their voice,i miss them,i cry.. tat's it..
tears will roll down automatically..
neway,wanna bath now..
no mood to resume n i think tis blog is long enuf..