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I WANT TO GO HOME !!!!!
i miss my home dearly,so much tat i keep crying all d time..
even if i dun cry,i think u can noe thru my face expression..
i m so lifeless,i want to go home..
i want my mum,my dad..
i want my brothers..
i want my elder brother to come here ASAP..
still got 6 more days to go..
time seems so slow..
i was like ages here,but im just 7 days at here including today..
time is passing so slow..
i want to go HOME..
sobs sobs sobsss....
d CCTV in d lift here were out of function few days ago n 2 cases of theft happened..
two girls reported to d police n d thiefs havent been caught yet..
tis makes me feel more insecure..
i miss u all very very much..
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nth much i can do other than blogging,i can just express my feeling here..
i can say other than on9,i will be reading books..
i try hard to distract my mind from thinking too much bout my family,my home,by reading books..
apparently,it brings no difference..
tears still pouring,my books gone wet..
whenever i write bout family,either in sms or blog,im sure to cry..
i shud say whenever i think of them,i'll be so upset..
i m missing my home so terribly..
just now when i went on9 in msn,a few ppl chatted wit me..
thru my personal msg,they shud noe why m i sad..
i cried each n everytime they ask me bout my recent life over KL,i rili cant endure anymore..
everyone is comforting me,i noe.. but how?? i still cant control d pouring down of my tears..
let me cry cry n cry,i will feel better..
but apparently still d same,i can say a little bit better after crying,but my mood isnt any differ,still as sour as tat..
missing my home so badly..
tomoro skul again,i think d feeling is still d same..
brushing teeth,tears gonna roll down..
teacher teaching,tears filled up my eyes..
hopefully during d orientation,i will feel better..
yea,today i gonna skip meals again,dun ask me to eat..
i got no mood to eat,no appetite to eat..
i guess if my mum calls me tonight,i m sure to cry again..
but i will try hard not to let her noe tat i cried..
i noe dad n mum worry me a lot,i try hard not to let them worry..
yesterday i sms-ed wit my brother n he adviced me not to be so sad,1 week later he will come here n i gonna move in to hostel..
he said,by tat time,we can play badminton together..
i noe he was trying to comfort me,but tis makes me feel more sad..
haix...
neway,thanx to him,at least i expressed my feeling to him..
tat's all for now,crying now..
got no energy to continue on..
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