*STILL D SAME*

yeah,it's still d same.. my feeling..
very moody.. i dun wan to share my problems,so dun ask me wat's d problem..
feel like dying now,lifeless lifeless n lifeless !!!
went to play badminton today,2 n a half hours..
crapped lots,laughed lotss..
so wat?? after tat went home,everything changed..
thinking lotss..
hate tis feeling !!!
i noe i m not grateful for everything tat i have,thinking of d others in d worldwide,there r tons of ppl who suffer much much more than me..
i know,but i jz cant control myself spiritually...
i dun noe wat i want,perhaps i want to DIE..
n everything will come to an end..
dun worry,when i rili cant carry on,i will tell u all,"i'm going to leave"..
tomoro going for badminton again,not much ppl going..
so,dun noe can play till wat time,but i hope to play as long as possible so tat i wont think so much..
u will see me smilling but tat's just a pretending action.. my heart isnt smilling..
all those smiles aint sincere,not at ALL..
i'm gonna burst very soon !!
praying hard so tat tomoro i will become a better me,back to normal..
wat i want now is cry,i want to CRY !!!
but yet tears never burst out...
tis makes me feel more tired,spiritually tired.. more lifeless..
i m jz too tired of my life..
girls' mind are complicated,ryte??
i admit,i m a complicated person..
anyone can help?? i guess no one..
so,just leave me alone..
nothing to say,speechless,wordless..