*HELP*

feel so depressed lar,so DOWN..
mind full of thoughts,full of question marks..
*sigh*
a few problems bothering me now,but i m gonna mention one oni..
my studies in d future..
waiting for matriculation or JPA or ASEAN,but all seem hopeless.. who noes,mayb i will get none of them..
or mayb i worry too much..
arrgghhhhh !!! watever lar..
received a call tis evening,dun noe from wat college,if not mistaken is SURYA COLLEGE..
d lady told me tat i m offered for foundation in science or A-level,i was playing badminton tat time n didnt noe wat i answered lar.. @!#@%&!(@%!$#$!&..
n den ended d call.. on d way going home,recalled back bout d conversation wit tat lady,so,decided to call back..
but no one answer call,sure lar,working time over dy wert..
cheh..
den i told mum everything,she wants me to call back tomoro..
so,jz wait lor..
later at night,another lady called me,tis one from NIRWANA COLLEGE..
more or less like SURYA COLLEGE oso,pre-U courses offered..
n i m offered for foundation in science,half price which cost bout RM5000+ [originally RM 10,500]..
tis is a fast track course which takes bout 6 months from next month onwards,n den will further studies to either indonesia or india for 5 years..
d entire programme will cost bout RM100,00+ depending on which college i will take in india or indonesia..
but one thing,if i'm to accept tis offer,must start my studies from next week..
wat the heck lar,i dun think i will accept..
depends bah.. so damn depressed now.. wat shud i do.. HELPPPPP !!!!
it seems nice,but still deciding lar..
den my bro called me,n we chatted bout tis..
he crapped lotssss to me,tis n tat..
he said my parents most probably wont let me take tis course in india/indonesia for 5 yrs coz they worry bout me lotss n i noe tat..
come on,i can see thru their expressions when i told them bout these things..
but thanx bro,u helped me lotss..
i told my bro i might change my choice to other courses,as long as it's not expensive..
and so lame,i told him,"i follow u study QS lor.." haha..
n he was like "sweat lar u,sot liao ah.. u see,get so good geh result 4 wat,now need to think a lot.. haha.."
erm,he is ryte.. i rather get d result like him,den settled everything.. if i could get straight A's,den will settle everything oso..
but now,not straight A's,so "em 3 em 4" ..
haixxxxx...
den he said he will ask han jo[a friend of him] bout wat i shud do..
he is coming back tomoro,so,will ask him tomoro lor..
my teacher told me tat i shud take a course tat i m interested in..
dun choose sth tat i dun like,i will regret..
i noe,but.. change my choice will b d best solution.. haha..
perhaps business admin. ,biomedical,bio tech,food tech.. haixxx... no idea..
i chatted wit phin oso... when i told her bout changing my choice,she responsed in tis way..
"harr.. den how bout ur dream [ taking pharmacy course ]"
n i told her,"my dream ah,mayb jz let it b a dream forever lor.."
haha.. but mayb i will take pharmacy,who noes..
at least if i change my choice,i can lighten d burden of my parents,ryte??
but if they care,i m sure they will let me pursue up pharmacy course..
i gonna seek help from everyone tat is possible.. n help me if u can..
i rili need u guys' assistance.. help me..
arrghhhhh !!!
God,pls lar.. ease my thought,peace my soul..
i feel like banging my head to d wall n end my life,tat's it.. haha..

ANYONE who heard of SURYA COLLEGE or NIRWANA COLLEGE b4,pls tell me more bout them..
whether they r good,or not..
HELPPP...

got no mood to blog dy,ciaozz..
bye..